I really..

[_danger_line]

Just really miss one of my best friends. It's so hard to not talk..but I could never give this person a friendship. Where's the genuinity in that. I thought that it could keep me from wondering when he's going to call or text me, but I notice nothing has really changed. I feel like such a teenager. Suck it. I don't care. I want this person in my life. I feel like half of me has died.

Read through our old text messages. Why do I do this to myself?