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So, I really, really, REALLY need some excitement in my life. SERIOUSLY. I like school, and work isn't as bad as it could be...but I CRAVE excitement. I guess that's why I do some rash things...but I need to be rash in order to survive! And when I say "rash" things, they aren't BAD/DANGEROUS rash...it's more "rash" like I do things on impulse and don't think and analyze them for too long before I act or re-act. So, I guess this is my only means of staying alive and human and realizing i'm not dead inside. Sometimes I think being rash is good because it tells me that i'm still a living, breathing, and excited being. Believe it or not, I usually spend my lifetime waiting for everyone else to make moves for me. I like this temporary change. Making my own decisions (so far!) has worked out okay for me. I hope i'm not tempting fate and screwing with the devil... haha...even though me and satan are good friends these days. haha. I just need have appropriate reactions to my rash decisions. This way, if I get okay reactions, I know that i'm not boring, but also i'm not totally crazy and out of my mind. I suggest everyone takes a day and goes a little crazy...legally correct, but still go crazy. If you're anything at all like me, you're shy (somewhat, and YES i'm SHY!)...if you are like me, go crazy just for a minute and do something you've always wanted to do. Then tell me about it! haha. I want responses from you guys! I need to know you're still alive too! But really, I tend to analyze things too much sometimes (being the mother that I am...) and I lose a part of my teenager-dom each time. I don't usually behave like a teenager, and so I miss out on a little bit of my childhood each time I over-analyze and re-evaluate situations. I think, for this moment in time, i've done my duty to MYSELF and gone out of the box. It's exciting, and I want to roll with it for awhile. So, hit me up kids! I wanna hear from you guys!
I love Billy, p.s. I hope he's in my stat class tomorrow. He's the coolest kid! AH. Maybe my next rash move will be taken out on him!...who knows? check back with me after 1:10pm tomorrow. Haha. JK.
And, p.s., I've rediscovered and rekindled my love for Ashley Palla. Ha. I totally see myself in her...it's scary, indeed. I love her because she's an adult like me (meaning she grew up TOO fast, which is good and bad), but she still is one of my kids...one we can play with and have fun with. I also seriously admire how she takes care of LM and loves her whole-heartedly. She's so good to her! I hope that I have half the bond they have together with my own sisters!
AND, for the record, I DON'T LOVE IT! THE SHADY ERIC BUSINESS! NO! I DON'T LOVE IT! LM, got my back, right? SHAAAADY. "your sister text messaged me and said, aww you're so..." (in my head to myself) "NO! BASTARD! AWAY!", (but out loud) "Oh, huh, weird. I didn't tell her that story...hmmm...BYE!". NO SIR. I'm too old for you! hahaha.
OKAY, so I love how I randomly decide to take 5 minutes of my time to catch you guys up on things, but i've managed to take a LONG TIME to say basically nothing. Haha. I love being vague! yes! So, basically, this "short re-cap" has managed to take up a lot more time and space than I had planned. Oh well. Thanks to those who stuck around and read it all, and to those who didn't... BLOW ME. HA. Hope all is well with YOU ALL. Leave me messages, email me, or call me to catch up.
Sex, love, and happiness to you all,
*Laura
I love Billy, p.s. I hope he's in my stat class tomorrow. He's the coolest kid! AH. Maybe my next rash move will be taken out on him!...who knows? check back with me after 1:10pm tomorrow. Haha. JK.
And, p.s., I've rediscovered and rekindled my love for Ashley Palla. Ha. I totally see myself in her...it's scary, indeed. I love her because she's an adult like me (meaning she grew up TOO fast, which is good and bad), but she still is one of my kids...one we can play with and have fun with. I also seriously admire how she takes care of LM and loves her whole-heartedly. She's so good to her! I hope that I have half the bond they have together with my own sisters!
AND, for the record, I DON'T LOVE IT! THE SHADY ERIC BUSINESS! NO! I DON'T LOVE IT! LM, got my back, right? SHAAAADY. "your sister text messaged me and said, aww you're so..." (in my head to myself) "NO! BASTARD! AWAY!", (but out loud) "Oh, huh, weird. I didn't tell her that story...hmmm...BYE!". NO SIR. I'm too old for you! hahaha.
OKAY, so I love how I randomly decide to take 5 minutes of my time to catch you guys up on things, but i've managed to take a LONG TIME to say basically nothing. Haha. I love being vague! yes! So, basically, this "short re-cap" has managed to take up a lot more time and space than I had planned. Oh well. Thanks to those who stuck around and read it all, and to those who didn't... BLOW ME. HA. Hope all is well with YOU ALL. Leave me messages, email me, or call me to catch up.
Sex, love, and happiness to you all,
*Laura