my first REAL post

[_dahmer]

im tired

im tired of being the guy people see me to be
im tired of being the guys guy
im tired of putting up this facade i show
im tired of coming being the big man and coming home to nothing
im tired of the fakeness we all show
im tired of.... well everything going on today

i dont get it

im there for my friends when they need it, and i know they are there for me, but what godd is being great if you feel like a piece of shit when you come home?

i miss when i could hold her tight
i miss being innocent
i miss when it didn't matter
i miss you all knew who i was

i might be a big sports fan
i might know about cars
i might have worked here or there

but why do you really care?

honestly though

why do i bother?

is this face i give you really worth my effort?
would you accept the real me?
would you laugh in my face?
would you even talk to me

fuck the drama
fuck the beer
fuck you all if you dont know me

the problem i feel,
is im afraid,
afraid of who i really am,

call me emo
call me gay
ill tell you all the same

remeber the easto coast sound and say "go fuck your mother"

if you like me all the same

without the bullshit, without the life, without the attitude, and you dont call me your "boy"
then your who i live for, if nobody but you. then i throw this up read it and fuck you....