this sucks.
oh my gawwwwwwwd. i am so tired its unbelieveable. i haevnt rEeaLLy slept in a good week, ive gotten 6 hours of sleep TOPS. ever since sunday.. and this morning i hadda wake up at like 7:30 so i cud go to my moms work, i have a hair appt. & its up here, and i dont have a car so u get the drift. usually i go to the beach but not feeling up to it. everyones so nice to me here, they give me so many compliments- its a lil overwhelming. o well. james is here. AWKWARD AS FUCK! i wana say something to him so badd. "fuck u" "dont act like ur my best friend" "i hate your fucking guts w/ alll my fucking guts" something. but i cant. theres too many ppl around when hes around.. when he first walked in, smiled and said hi, my heart just stopped, i wanted to yell, cry & jus fall to the ground. i duno what my mom was thinking. she doesnt even aknowledge how weird it is for me.anyway. thursday school was alright, i didnt wana go but my mom said i have to... so i went in late-10:00 & i thought we were taking a test, but i guess we didnt, so i just went to mr.petraitis's for a lil bit and then i went in the bathroom for like 10 mins till the bell rang.. WHOA. there were 2 black girls in there & they were gay & we're completely open about it, and the one was starin at me in the mirror and she like licked at me, ( iw asnt supposed to see-but i did, unfortunately) i was so scared, thought tehy were guna gang bang me in the stall, the one was like why do u like white boys.. too weird. anyway, english we watced act one of romeo & juliet again to get the fEeL of the lang. lol. i love that movie =) i ddint go to math jus cause i was tired & didnt feel like just sitting there so i went to biology instead & hung out w/ michelle josh & all those kids. journalism it was jus me james & rachel. had some good laughs, played w/ balloons. the usual. lol. after school paige came to visit, didnt get to really talk to her :-\ but janina ended up coming home w/ me.. she watched me clean my room while we jus talked the entire time.. theeeen we went to carolines, walked to publix got candy,ordered pizza, looked at the yb and then we went to this field thing.. it was crazy, felt like u were in africa, and the hard rock was lguithing fireworks so it was like strobe lights & u were raving... they scared me alot w/ the stupid tinman, we went back to her house chased them w/ steak, chugged milk, ate ALOT and went back to the field to look up at the stars, it was very enjoyable. me & caroline woke up the next morn. at 930, ah. i was soppsed to go to the wresttling regionals w/ michelel but she didnt wana so we ddint, me & caro ate breakfast watched tv theni was off to michelles, we went shopping w/ beth- saw so0 much cute stuff!!!!!! bu i ended up jus buyin this suuuper cool guy, i named him- him. hes way cool. my mom picked me up and i got home ate, cleaned the turtle cage :-X :-X and got dressed. theeen michelle & her aunt picked me up for the hoobastank concert!! it was lots & lots of fun. LOTS of cuties :) this one kid looked like kurt cobain. i got caught in the mosh pit a few times, my shoes kept falling off, but i loved it. lol. i pussh those motehrfucka off me yo! this black guy knew like all the words to the sogs he was like singin & tapping me i was like i dont kno all the words, lol. hooba lead singer=super cuuuute. anyway we got home early 11, i slept gooooood. yep. so now im here. its 930, my appt.is at 12:30, not too far away.. cant wait to cut my hair, im so tempted to just cut it all off, but i wont. guna look fLy ;] well im guna go downstairs and buy a magazine... later cuh*