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You know what sucks the most.... I still care... I try with all my might not to, but I do...and that fucking hurts the most, because I know I'm the only fucking one who does.... I think it's really shitty how people forget who really meant anything to them... who was there when no one else was.... because I bailed your ass out alot... and now you have all these new friends, and it fucking hurts me to see you turn into this person I know you're not, and be fake with all your new friends... and sell me down a fucking river...
but it's ok, because realizing that I'm the only one who still cares makes it a whole lot easier to let the past be the past and move on ... I hope you're happy in the end when you realize not one of them will ever care about you the way that I did....
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Going home with Jess tomorrow...suppose to leave today but I didn't wanna pay for gas, so this way I can split gas with Jtoons in her car which is like half what mine is, and we can smoke the whole way....that's awesome.... I can't wait to be home... I miss it... actually I don't, I miss what it use to be, the friends I use to have, the people I use to want to see...everything that was.... but it's still home even if it's kinda sad now.... but their losers and they deserve eachother haha...it's funny that the only reason they know eachother is because of me, all me, and now neither one give a shit about me...but like I said their fucking losers, and I'm destined for big fucking things in thiss life, I got out of that shit hole town, and Im working on making an amazing life for myself... don't worry you'll be jealous, not that you haven't always been... I guess I should find it funny
I think I just find it sad...really sad.... you coulda been something if you had stuck with me, but now you're nothing...and you'll always be nothing...and that's the saddest story I've ever heard
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Im angry... but it's the truth, I was always better than you, and I should never have wasted the time on either one of you... not one second of it....that's probably my biggest regret.... I put so much energy into you, both of you, when there were so many other people in the world who should have meant more to me... and in the end, when you left, they were there... they had my back, and if I have anything to thank you for it's giving me the opportunity to get to know them, and learn from them...and be friends with people that have worth...because you, the both of you, are scum...always have been always will be... have fun hang out soon please, it'll make me laugh, and I love to laugh...especially at you!