Jul 28, 2005 11:36
*k' i have'nt updated in a few day's & i have various reasons' for that*
..i really see no point in it anymore..cuz' yeah..juss don't really..but fuck it i wanna write so deal with it..
..Read It Or Don't..Don't Bother Be Either Way..
..but anyways' yeah..
..tha' other day when i was waitin' on my buddy he never showed up but he had a good reason..he was helpin' sum' guy out & shyt so yeah understandable..i guess..i will get over it rite? ..Exactly cuz' I'm over it allready.. & for tha' remainder of that day it pretty much sucked..
..let's see tuesday did'nt consist of much i chilled around tha' house & shyt did'nt do to much juss hung out chilled with my buddy he came over we chilled around in my room & shyt listen'd to tunes smoked up not to much after that we came & watched sum' t.v. with my mom then we chilled outside for a bit & he went home..
..Wends..which was yesterday..i had to go see tha' doctor..my surgeon Adrales..he said my leg is doin' good & that i was very lucky i still have a leg..& my reply was yeah i'm glad that i still do have a leg..
..you know i sit & think of how lucky that i am cuz' yeah no one understands this situation & how scary it is i dun' care who you are you dun' understand..sum' might understand to a certain point & shyt but not fully like i do..it's hard to think if you did'nt go to the Dr. when you did that you could've died..it's juss a thought you could'nt imagine unless you were in that situation for real..
..i'm thinkin' that i need to change sum' of my way's sumpthin' is tellin' me sumpthin' for real..& i need to listen..& i'm goin' to listen..
..i'm not puttin' up with shyt that people wanna give..i'm tired of it..i've did it for so long & it's not gonna happen nomore..
..but yeah let me continue with yesterday i got off'a track then i will continue with my ramblin'..but it'a not all ramblin'..it's tha' truth..
..but yeah my friend came over yesterday around 6 lol..he got drenched..my mom had to find him sum' clothes to wear while he put his clothes in tha' dryer to dry haha..it was funny..well after all that mess we went to get high my mom went to work we chilled juss smokin' up watchin' t.v. for a while till' around 9 i guess & he rolled out back to his house..then another friend of mine juss randomly rolls up to my doorstep & it's been a lil' bit since we chilled my dogs were goin' nuts i was here alone & then sum'one is juss knockin' tha' fuck outta my door Gina let me in stop bein' shady & all this shyt yeah that really makes me wanna open tha' door..yeah rite..so i juss acted like i was'nt home & all was good..then Gene comes' home sounds' like he is rippin' tha' door off'a tha hindges' freaked me out i was in here on tha' computer..then he calls my mom to see if she will go to Mc'D's for us when she get's off'a work well she did when they made it back here i was allmost passed out cuz' i had a massive headache..so i did'nt even eat really cuz' tha' fries was salty as fuck & that juss ruined it all..so i juss got my dressings changed on my leg took my meds. & went to bed..like a good gurl..haha..
& now here i am all awake & shyt..hungry waitin' on my mom to get home with me sum' grubb hopefully..
..ok back to my ramblin' as most of you prolly think it is..
but yeah there is more problems then wut' i have listed..let's see i have a very good friend that i do care bout' alot..not sure wut' he thinks but yeah..i know he does care..or he would'nt come see me & shyt while i'm like this..
then there is this other friend of mine that i went to school with & talk to on here he say's he is single & so am i so why can't we talk & shyt but i dunno i think he is havin' issues his self..i dun' think he is sure wut' he want's & i'm not sure either i'm not trin' to jump rite back up into a relationship so soon..like i heard Jamie did but i think that was all a lie cuz' yeah my friend seen him yesterday @ bout' 6 in tha' mornin' with tha' guy he work's for so if he moved to Ohio with a chick it must of not lasted to long..who could put up with his fuckin' mouth to long i know i sure could'nt..that's why i'm where i am rite now..& i dun' think i'd ever take his wack ass back for real..
then there is this other guy on here that i also went to school with & shyt & use to hang out with but he dunno how to talk to a gurl for real..so i dun' think that will go to far he's juss all talk if you ask me..haha..he would'nt know wut' to do with it if you put it in his fuckin' face haha..for real..but yeah i think i'm done now..i'm gonna go wait for food & it's pourin' tha' rain down..so i might take a nap afterwards..i'll post later..
..<3..Mucho..<3..
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