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so i said i'd wait and see how it turns out.
We've been together for 11 weeks.
turns out i'm around 8 weeks pregnant.
I've known for 3 weeks but i never go on here so ya
believe it or not.
I cannot wait.
I'm scared out of my mind.
but i cannot wait.
we've been so good together.
we're getting married toooooooooo.
in three days.
I cannot believe how STUPID i was to want to marry james.
we were completely wrong for eachother!
He didn't even make me truly happy.
but im not putting anything on him,
we both fucked up.
all i can say is I am in love with my man
& I cannot wait til Saturday!!!
we live in Lancaster, CA together
where I feel safe cuz I almost had a miscarriage
and got stuck on bedrest
& if i still lived with my mom
she was pushing me into a corner to get a job
and leave my boyfriend and be "independent"
and having the kid with HER.
wowwwww.
and just totally stressed me the fuck out
& I can't do that right now.
But i fucking HATE laying in bed all day
seriously
who knew it'd be so boring!
I haveeeee.
5 more weeks on bedrest.
bleh.
I didn't invite anyone in SD but a handful of people cuz
noone in SD is worth my time
OR i haven't seen anyone in so long
it'd just be weird inviting them when i
havent seen them in forever.
k, back to bed with morning sickness.
i hate life lol
im just glad i havent puked.