so take a look at me now.
its safe to say that im "out of my tree" as britty would so nicely put it :) i cant help it, ima fucking nutcase, but you love me anyway, and i dont get why.
the past few days have consisted of...
+ dyed hair that looks awesomeo.
+ getting a job = paper dollas.
+/- first day of work on thursday. 6:00-9:30.
- going to bartow for the weekend. ew never again.
+ getting fitted for my cousins sweet 16. the dress is b-e-a-u-t-f-u-l.
+ ending up with a B+ in AP american history.
+ leaving for new york soon. 4 days of awesome times soon to come.
- losing it.
- im going to smack the fucking shit out of my sister in about .05 seconds.
+ coldness.
+ eminem is great.
------ reading sparknotes for catcher in the rye. :(
- my lip hurts.
- blah blah blah emo.
- saw things i shouldnt have.
- memorizing this effin menu. damn asians.
+ its almost the weekend :D kinda....sorta.
Although he is intelligent and sensitive, Holden narrates in a cynical and jaded voice. He finds the hypocrisy and ugliness of the world around him almost unbearable, and through his cynicism he tries to protect himself from the pain and disappointment of the adult world. However, the criticisms that Holden aims at people around him are also aimed at himself. He is uncomfortable with his own weaknesses, and at times displays as much phoniness, meanness, and superficiality as anyone else in the book. As the novel progresses, we begin to perceive that Holden’s alienation is his way of protecting himself. He uses his isolation as proof that he is better than everyone else around him and therefore above interacting with them. The truth is that interactions with other people usually confuse and overwhelm him, and his cynical sense of superiority serves as a type of self-protection. Thus, Holden’s alienation is the source of what little stability he has in his life. As readers, we can see that Holden’s alienation is the cause of most of his pain. He never addresses his own emotions directly, nor does he attempt to discover the source of his troubles. He desperately needs human contact and love, but his protective wall of bitterness prevents him from looking for such interaction. Alienation is both the source of Holden’s strength and the source of his problems. For example, his loneliness propels him into his date with sally hayes, but his need for isolation causes him to insult her and drive her away. Similarly, he longs for the meaningful connection he once had with jane gallagher, but he is too frightened to make any real effort to contact her. He depends upon his alienation, but it destroys him.
jesus christ that sounds so familiar :( stupid catcher in the rye book. now im in a terrible mood. but eminems angryness makes me incredibly happy. i know this might not make sense to anyone... but being angry puts me at ease. it makes things so much easier to deal with.
its so true... its sick.
Try to pull each other's legs,
Until the other begs, We're liein' to ourselves,
That's the beauty of it yeah,
Cuz we truly love each other,
That's why we always fight,
And all we do is shove each other,
Every other fuckin' night,
And it's clear it ain't gonna change,
It's pent up rage,
We both have,
We both feel like we've been upstaged by someone else,
We've both been,
Someone else's someone else,
Problem is neither one wants help,
It's an addiction and it can't be fixed,
Our family's mixed up,
There's a baby sister in the mix,
And it hurts cuz the pieces to the puzzle don't fit,
And anybody who thinks they know us doesn't know shit,
And they're probably just tired of hearin' it all the time,
On every song, every lyric, and every rhyme,
All the hoopla, all of the whoopdy whoop,
What you put me through, fuckin' whoopdy doo,
But I won't be made a fool of,
If this is true love,
You wouldn't do what,
You did last time,
You wouldn't screw up,
This time,
Cuz this time girl,
I'm tellin you what,
You do it again I'm fuckin you up,
No matter what...
i love mr. eminem.
-stiner face.