Honesty update part 1
just for the record...i refuse to reply to attacks on any of this. i dont know if i will be attacked...but you can do whatever. im not going to reply unless its willing tobe civil
Honestly...i miss all of my old friends. i really do. i miss hanging out with them and going to parties and crap. i miss that. but i dont know if i 100% want it back. i mean i want the friendships. but things will never be the way they were. ever. i miss my freshman year and the people i hung out with but at the same time people change and grow. ive changed and grown into someone i like being now. and while i really miss the fun i used to have...i am not too happy about who i used to be. i was a whiny depressed little person and if not being that causes me to lose friends. so be it.
Honestly....i found a boy that i love. i dont plan to give him up. he is everything ive ever wanted or needed or asked for. hes a good christian guy that beleives and feels the same way i do...but still knows how to have fun. and that makes me happy.
Honestly...i think its good that so many people have become so analytical. catty and danelle are who im thinking about but not just them. you cant go through life being told what to believe and how to feel. sometimes you jsut have to think things out for yourself. and even if we disagree...it doesnt matter. this life isnt forever. ultimately we have to love each other b/c our relationships with people are the only things going on into eternity. the stupid disagreements wont matter anymore.
Honestly...we are all going to make some bad choices. but you never learn unless you make mistaktes. i need to realize that trying to save my friends from possible "mistakes" is only gongi to cripple them even if i am successful. i need to learn to let things go.
Honestly...im tired of fighting. im tired of all this freaknig dissention. what happened to everyone loving everyone? im trying my best to make things different. at least on my part. i cant speak for any of you or change any of your minds. but im doing what i can on my part. im sorry to anyone ive mistreated lately whether intentional or unintentional.
Honestly...i freaking miss being so close with brooke and sarah. like...us not spending much time together anymore realyl sucks. i always look back at old pictures and read old notes and stuff and it makes me sad. and i msis being clsoe to danelle. over the summer we had this awesome friendship and i felt like i could just let everything go and be myself with her. and now theres just a void there.
well.theres a whole lot more i have to say but my family is going to la caretta. so there will be a part 2 sometime later tonight or tomorow.
Honestly...i miss all of my old friends. i really do. i miss hanging out with them and going to parties and crap. i miss that. but i dont know if i 100% want it back. i mean i want the friendships. but things will never be the way they were. ever. i miss my freshman year and the people i hung out with but at the same time people change and grow. ive changed and grown into someone i like being now. and while i really miss the fun i used to have...i am not too happy about who i used to be. i was a whiny depressed little person and if not being that causes me to lose friends. so be it.
Honestly....i found a boy that i love. i dont plan to give him up. he is everything ive ever wanted or needed or asked for. hes a good christian guy that beleives and feels the same way i do...but still knows how to have fun. and that makes me happy.
Honestly...i think its good that so many people have become so analytical. catty and danelle are who im thinking about but not just them. you cant go through life being told what to believe and how to feel. sometimes you jsut have to think things out for yourself. and even if we disagree...it doesnt matter. this life isnt forever. ultimately we have to love each other b/c our relationships with people are the only things going on into eternity. the stupid disagreements wont matter anymore.
Honestly...we are all going to make some bad choices. but you never learn unless you make mistaktes. i need to realize that trying to save my friends from possible "mistakes" is only gongi to cripple them even if i am successful. i need to learn to let things go.
Honestly...im tired of fighting. im tired of all this freaknig dissention. what happened to everyone loving everyone? im trying my best to make things different. at least on my part. i cant speak for any of you or change any of your minds. but im doing what i can on my part. im sorry to anyone ive mistreated lately whether intentional or unintentional.
Honestly...i freaking miss being so close with brooke and sarah. like...us not spending much time together anymore realyl sucks. i always look back at old pictures and read old notes and stuff and it makes me sad. and i msis being clsoe to danelle. over the summer we had this awesome friendship and i felt like i could just let everything go and be myself with her. and now theres just a void there.
well.theres a whole lot more i have to say but my family is going to la caretta. so there will be a part 2 sometime later tonight or tomorow.