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today is just a huge blur of mixed emotions. i feel really horible about some things..and then other parts of the day i was happy. or maybe im just good at fooling myself. idont know. my mom tries so hard to make me feel better. i love her for it. sometimes i jurt really deep down. and then sometimes i laugh so hard. like..minutes away from each other. i cant decide what to feel. all i know is that a lot of things suck right now. and as hard as i try to make them right..it doesnt seem to work. after school cory and i took blake bell home then he took me to the elementary school to meet my mom and we sat in his truck and talkted a little. you know.hes not so horrible. everyone hates him.and i dont get why. i mean he made me feel a little better. at least he puts up an effort. im discovering new friends...people i usually overlook. and they are more there for me than half of my "friends". i dontk now whether i love it or hate it. then i got my hair cut. its not too different. just a few more layers. and the front is a little shorter. then we went to CVS and i talked to Vannah a little. then La Caretta. i effin love that place. i feel overly full now. now to tie up loose ends:
-Jordan Smith (guy)- i dont know if you read this. but if you do, im really really sorry for everything going on between us. i wish you would give me a chance to talk to you about this all before you go off hating me. whatever you thought i said..i may have said wrong.but i promise i meant it with the best of intentions. you are my friend. its nothat you broke up with brooke. i would never try to push you away as a friend. im tired of being mad at you. and feeling uncomfortable around you. so hate me if you want. but imsorry. i will always consider you my friend..whether its mutual or not. people all mess up. you do. i do. everyone does. and i addmit that ive been immature. but im not the only one. i really want to just make things better. please...jsut hear me out. and give me a chance. i love you (as a friend) no matter how ou feel about me.
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-Jordan Smith (guy)- i dont know if you read this. but if you do, im really really sorry for everything going on between us. i wish you would give me a chance to talk to you about this all before you go off hating me. whatever you thought i said..i may have said wrong.but i promise i meant it with the best of intentions. you are my friend. its nothat you broke up with brooke. i would never try to push you away as a friend. im tired of being mad at you. and feeling uncomfortable around you. so hate me if you want. but imsorry. i will always consider you my friend..whether its mutual or not. people all mess up. you do. i do. everyone does. and i addmit that ive been immature. but im not the only one. i really want to just make things better. please...jsut hear me out. and give me a chance. i love you (as a friend) no matter how ou feel about me.
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