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so thursday after practice my dad picked me up and it wasnt his day to pick me up so i didnt know what was going on ... he pulled me into the big boys parking lot across from the school and i asked what are we doing here ... i look over at him and tears are building in his eyes ... i knew something bad had happened ... he then told me that my dog tara died today ... i started balling, shes had cancer for 8 months and 8 months ago the doctor said she would live for 2 more months at the max. at least we got 6 more months then predicted but it was so hard for me to hear .. i was soo attached to her ... being an only child and having a lot of pets its like the pets are my brothers and sisters crazy huh? but its true ... ever since then i've been crying on and off its so hard to deal with ... i stayed at my dads saturday and was supposed to last night but i decided to come home .. im just not ready to be there and see my other dog klaus(taras brother) alone and wondering where tara is ... its really hard and i went threw the same thing almost 3 years ago with another one of my dogs allison ... at least both of them are in a better place now and arent suffering ... i saw tara on tuesday and she seems completely fine but the doctor said that when it "happens" it will happen fast and i guess so ... by thursday when my dad and step mom took her to the doctor he said it was like my dog was breathing threw a small straw .. so they had to put her down instead of making her suffer ... :(