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[_crash_into_me_]

Soooo, i'm just waiting for my Josh to get here so i can have fun times. I feel bad cuz his car is all broken and it took great lengths to get him here but at least he's staying till tomorrow. I actually have to babysit tonight so he's gonna hang out with my dad (???, heaven help me they're like best friends) but its okay it will be so nice to see Jillian. School is almost around the corner and i can't wait, this year is going to be AMAZING. but, i'm still not ready for my summer vacation to be over yet- i'm having way too much fun with my girls.... the adventures of manya and jenny never cease to amaze me- we didn't end up at a lakehouse OR at the beach but somehow ended up having a grand old time anyway (when we were actually together, and otherwise). Aaaaand the last dispatch concert is coming up and that is VERY exciting. I was in a really bad mood earlier but as my mom pointed out- its not worth it. If someone is hurting your feelings, whether intentionally or otherwise and they KNOW they are doing, and they make no effort to change the things that are so hurtful, well then fuck them. I don't care. Sure, it sucks to realize that despite the dramaticization the self pity and the whining, i actually don't matter at ALL but all the more reason to let that burden slide off my shoulders and get on with my life, guilt free. I just thought it'd be different, but i was giving him way too much credit.

OK, well I'm off to cutify myself in the remaining minutes before he gets here- gimme a ring if you wanna meet him!! :)

-Jenny