Fucked up
Whoa the summer is going by pretty fast. We start school August 2. Thats a month from Friday. I don't wanna go bak. Its my last year, I hate it there and idk WTF I am gunna do when I get out. I cried last week when I was talkin to my mom about it bcuz I don't kno wat I wanna do and so therefore idk wat college I want to go to. (( shakes ))
I love my job. I really hope I get a car b4 school starts bcuz I wanna b able to keep my job but i'll need a car then bcuz I won't b able to work n the morning nemore and i'll have to work after school. CRAP! I'll b so tired too bcuz i'll b working so late! Golly. I am off 2moro and Friday, thank God! I am so tired. I can't wait to get paid Friday.
I think I am going over to Sean's 2moro. I like him but those of you who kno me kno the situation.
Friday I am going to the Leadership Academy graduation for ROTC. I can't wait to see them and stuff. I am so proud of them. Then were goin up to Adventure Island bcuz Aimee is gunna meet us up there and were gunna hang for a while and shes supposed to see if she can stay the night. Then were prolly goin to the mall. News shoes I can't frekin wait! I love my Converse but bcuz I wear them ALL the time, they hurt my feet, so I am gunna try and find sum Vans. I want these ones out my magazine and I may actually get to order my green Converse. I want them so bad.
Chris got mad and was like there just shoes Mandee. Get over it. I was like fine, watever. I just have wanted them for so long and so much and everytime I try to get them they don't have 'em. I get so disappointed. :(
Then Sunday is The 4th of July. So I am gunna go with Chris prolly go watch fireworks. I am so excited I can't wait to see him. RENAES GUNNA BE THERE TOO! I havn't seen her in like amonth bcuz shes in 'prison'. God how do you fall so hard for sumone? I never thought it was possible. It totally blows my mind. How can someone get so deep into you even tho you try so hard not to let ppl get that far in? I scares me but sum how I trust him so much I don't worry whether or not it won't work or if he'll leave bcuz sumhow I kno in my heart he won't. Hes just . . . . ALL mine.
Holy crap yesterday morning Vanessa got into an accident on her way home from my house. I am so happy she is alright and shes not hurt. I love her so much and I have no freakin idea wat I would do without her. I can imagine life without her. I can even begin to comprehend it! Without ne of my friends and stuff. Chris, Renae, Vanessa, Sean SQUARED, Tim, Nathan, Michelle, everyFRICKINone of them.
Please don't wish your life was over bcuz i'm so selfish I don't want it to be. If you were going to live 101 days i'd want to live 100 days so I wouldn't have to live a day without you . . .