Pushed out by circumstance...
I'm not a big fan of guilt. My emotions are out of wack this week. I've had a pretty heavy week do to some serious issues that I'm dealing with, but today seems okay. I haven't gotten out to run and my body is hating me for it. After I get a great nights sleep tonight, I plan on doing five miles after work. I need to clear my head and jump-start my heart.
Guilt. I'm using the strength someone has help me find in myself against them. Someone who I used to be relatively close with really helped me find my inner strength and confidence. I'm now using this new-found confidence and strength to push them away because I deserve better. I don't really know that guilt is a justifiable emotion here, but that's what my head (or is it heart?) is telling me it feels.
If you scroll back a few entries where I blabbed about poor, poor, pitiful me who was in love with a man who couldn't devote himself to me and blah blah blah, good news! I'm over it. I'm ready to move on. Kanye says it best "You wait a couple months, then you gonna see you never find nobody better than me."
I just wrote a literary analysis that made me feel very mature. I love pretending that I know a lot about life and love. I think I'm a pretty good bullshitter and I take pride in that.
Who wants to go see Incubus with me?
Guilt. I'm using the strength someone has help me find in myself against them. Someone who I used to be relatively close with really helped me find my inner strength and confidence. I'm now using this new-found confidence and strength to push them away because I deserve better. I don't really know that guilt is a justifiable emotion here, but that's what my head (or is it heart?) is telling me it feels.
If you scroll back a few entries where I blabbed about poor, poor, pitiful me who was in love with a man who couldn't devote himself to me and blah blah blah, good news! I'm over it. I'm ready to move on. Kanye says it best "You wait a couple months, then you gonna see you never find nobody better than me."
I just wrote a literary analysis that made me feel very mature. I love pretending that I know a lot about life and love. I think I'm a pretty good bullshitter and I take pride in that.
Who wants to go see Incubus with me?