Laura
i was told that you didn't like my idea. well, let me clarify it for you. i am unbelievably bitter towards you. you have hurt me too many times and i never felt like you were sorry for it. your presence in my life, however distant it may be, is hurting me far too much and i can't have it anymore. jordan told me you said were sorry. well, i would like to know what it is you are sorry for. and i would like this apology to be face to face. if your not sorry and you don't give a shit what i feel, fine. so be it. but i am willing right now to make things right between us, if you are so willing. there is too much history between us and remembering it all hurts me so very bad. i would like to make peace with my past so that it might stop hurting me so much. and, truthfully, i really don't trust you or jordan. i know this is left over from the pot thing, and i'm trying right now to work this out with jordan. but, if i can't reconcile my past, i know i'll have to forget about it, no matter what sacrifices that means i have to make. i have spent the last few days curled in bed trying not to grab the razors, and i can't be doing that anymore. so, please consider this. and, iknow that you still might want some information or something of the sort from me. if i know it, you can have it. i'll be in touch.