I could feel Halloween in the atmosphere
So there's this boy, Eric. Yeah. We haven't done anything yet but things seem to point in that direction. I'm just not sure if I am ready to open up to somebody. I'm scared of wasting time on a person when that part of my life could be lived a different way. I don't want to hurt anybody either, including myself. Oh, it's so hard being up here at college.... away from everybody.... you get lonely. Fast. But if I have a relationship with somebody... I want it to be real. I need the mental connection. I once thought I had that but... I don't know. I think about it from time to time. They said whatever happens will happen in time... or something smarter than that lol. They said a lot of smart stuff that made me think. That person will always have had some sort of impact on my life. I just don't know what to expect for later on in my life and if they will still be a part of my life later on. I guess I should keep living and doing whatever feels "right" to me.... but I can't help but look back at other things or people and wonder more about that....
Anyways. I got my paper done for tomorrow, 6 pages. I finished at exactly midnight. Now I have to have my performance memorized.... and there's a small problem with that: I don't yet. I skipped my drawing class at 2 today and slept on the futon the entire time I should have been in class. Studied, etc. Our hall was all decked out with decorations and a bunch of trick-or-treaters came through the dorms. That was pretty cool. I'm going to skip my design class tomorrow at 2pm also. I have stuff due in there but I need more time to practice this damn performance that I put off for 3 weeks. So I'm going to spend the entire day studying, up until my TAI 170 class at 6:30pm. Wish me luck......
Anyways. I got my paper done for tomorrow, 6 pages. I finished at exactly midnight. Now I have to have my performance memorized.... and there's a small problem with that: I don't yet. I skipped my drawing class at 2 today and slept on the futon the entire time I should have been in class. Studied, etc. Our hall was all decked out with decorations and a bunch of trick-or-treaters came through the dorms. That was pretty cool. I'm going to skip my design class tomorrow at 2pm also. I have stuff due in there but I need more time to practice this damn performance that I put off for 3 weeks. So I'm going to spend the entire day studying, up until my TAI 170 class at 6:30pm. Wish me luck......