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so all the infusions were for nuthing. im getting worse. im going up to stanford for them to do more tests. i might have to move to riverside cause they think that maybe sumthing around here is making everything worse. i went to the beach this weekend. with raul. at the very end we got in a dumb fight and i just got like a reality shock and i started realising how serious this is and i started crying. and i couldnt stop. it was like the first time ive cryed about my kidneys. im really scared now.. im not getting over this.. everyone says "itll be ok katie" "ur gunna get better" "ull be fine" NO.. its not ok, im not getting better... im not fine.