So Clumsy 'Cuz I'm Falling in Love
I can see myself falling in love. I can see be endlessly happy. And then I can see him breaking my heart. David's leaving soon. And of course I'm falling faster and harder with each day we spend together. I want to spend all of my time with him. I love who he is; I love who I am when I'm with him. We have fun together. We do new things. We do nothing. And it's perfect. Maybe my view is clouded by my excitement about him.
We're doing double dates and couple's weekends with my friends. We just did Solvang and Vegas. Laughlin and Santa Cruz are coming up faster than we'll realize. And we're going to be making a wine together. Well a few actually. But we're starting with a nice chocolate raspberry port. We're both really excited about it.
We go out to dinner. We come home for movies. I can fall asleep in his arms and feel safe, warm, protected. If anything were to happen, he could protect me. He loves movies as much as I do. And he's gotten me addicted to Scrubs.
I don't want him to leave yet. I'm selfish. I can't get used to the idea that I want someone so badly, and I know he is going to leave in mere months. Why am I investing so much time and energy into this relationship? Because he's worth it. I know he is. But I'll be leaving sooner than I know it. And then what? What if he stayed? What would happen when I leave? Would I choose San Diego State because that's where he'll be? Do I ask him to come to San Francisco with me? We've only been dating for two months. I shouldn't even be asking these questions. But I can't help it because I want him to be around. I want him in my life.
I feel like he's going to get sick of me soon. Hopefully he doesn't. Adam says he can't. All of the sweetest things anyone has every said to be have been said by Adam. He's my best friend. And I love him for it.
Things are going well. Life is close to perfection. I don't want anything to change.
We're doing double dates and couple's weekends with my friends. We just did Solvang and Vegas. Laughlin and Santa Cruz are coming up faster than we'll realize. And we're going to be making a wine together. Well a few actually. But we're starting with a nice chocolate raspberry port. We're both really excited about it.
We go out to dinner. We come home for movies. I can fall asleep in his arms and feel safe, warm, protected. If anything were to happen, he could protect me. He loves movies as much as I do. And he's gotten me addicted to Scrubs.
I don't want him to leave yet. I'm selfish. I can't get used to the idea that I want someone so badly, and I know he is going to leave in mere months. Why am I investing so much time and energy into this relationship? Because he's worth it. I know he is. But I'll be leaving sooner than I know it. And then what? What if he stayed? What would happen when I leave? Would I choose San Diego State because that's where he'll be? Do I ask him to come to San Francisco with me? We've only been dating for two months. I shouldn't even be asking these questions. But I can't help it because I want him to be around. I want him in my life.
I feel like he's going to get sick of me soon. Hopefully he doesn't. Adam says he can't. All of the sweetest things anyone has every said to be have been said by Adam. He's my best friend. And I love him for it.
Things are going well. Life is close to perfection. I don't want anything to change.