whiskey please
I'm home thursday - for like ever. And i've got to make a decision, finally about what I'm doing next semester. Shit, I'll probably just wait then do whatever's easier. I want to stay, I guess just to prove something. Okay so that heather's friend or whatever told me that if I kept running away, I would run away from everything. And i feel like that's what I'm doing here. It's not as easy or what i expected. And then it would just keep my dad and joann happy and off my back. which i mean I really like. And coming home isn't the solution i want it to be either. I still have to work hard on my classes, which will probably suck living with my dad or joann. Ehh.
Anyways I can't wait to come home and get fucked up. I'm so excited. I really just want to be off my shit for a month straight. I miss when my life was unpredictable and interesting - and fun. shit. I miss feeling like I was on top of the world, I know gay but i miss it. ya i do.
I think michelle would be pissed though. She would be hurt, I mean it's not going to influence my decision though. shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit
I really want someone else to make this decision for me, do all the work. All i want to do is get shit faces and hang out with my friends. ------ F.O.R.E.V.E.R. no jk but seriously, at this moment it all i want.
see this is what scares me. All i want to do is get fucked up, but i know a 25 year old burnout isn't cute, and I would be so ashamed, and I would feel like shit for doing this to my family.
I just wish i could find a better fit than this school.
Anyways I can't wait to come home and get fucked up. I'm so excited. I really just want to be off my shit for a month straight. I miss when my life was unpredictable and interesting - and fun. shit. I miss feeling like I was on top of the world, I know gay but i miss it. ya i do.
I think michelle would be pissed though. She would be hurt, I mean it's not going to influence my decision though. shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit
I really want someone else to make this decision for me, do all the work. All i want to do is get shit faces and hang out with my friends. ------ F.O.R.E.V.E.R. no jk but seriously, at this moment it all i want.
see this is what scares me. All i want to do is get fucked up, but i know a 25 year old burnout isn't cute, and I would be so ashamed, and I would feel like shit for doing this to my family.
I just wish i could find a better fit than this school.