The good old days...
I miss 9th grade. I really, really do. I miss the super-easy 9th grade homework, 9th grade drama, and my 9th grade friends. Everything was so easy my freshman year. In the school year, I had a great time with my friends from Mountain Lake. I got to see them every school day and I started a lot of great friendships that year. I had friends in every grade from 8th to 12th, and I loved it. I quite literally got along with everyone that I knew in the High School. There were people I didn't really know, but there wasn't anyone that I disliked or that (openly, anyway) disliked me, even if a few of them thought that my pink hair was a bit odd.
In the Summer I spent almost every day with Sarah and Sandra, and sometimes Chantal. We had a lot of good times that Summer, going up to Lori's, Warped Tour, calling Z99 just to chat with the DJs when we were bored, going to Vet's at 3am to get food and hiding from the police that were following us because we were out way past curfew. I miss it.
These days, most things aren't so fun-filled. I'm not really complaining. Life's not really bad at all; things are going okay. It just feels kind of empty and lonely. It's Summer, but I've seen Sandra maybe 3 times. I see Sarah plenty often, but about 70% of the time she's got Paul with her, leading to me having a major case of "Third Wheel." I still generally get along with everyone in Mountain Lake, but since Freshman year a few of my friendships have gotten a lot closer and I miss people a lot more than I did in past Summers. I spend a lot more time alone than I like to now. It seems that everyone I know is always busy with other friends, boyfriends/girlfriends, or family activities. And on top of that, I had a few great friends graduate this year. Now they're all busy with post-graduation things like moving and getting ready for college. Ashley moved, Sonny went back to New Zealand, and I haven't heard anything from Elsie except for when we talked for a few minutes at Pow Wow. I just kind of wish people could see that I really do miss spending time with them. No matter what things I've said in the past, I love all of my friends a lot; all of them.
I can't believe that by this time next year, I'll be finished with school. I'm going to miss everybody more than I can even put into words. What if when I go off to college I end up being some kind of completely friendless loner? I can totally see myself ending up as one of those college students who only leaves their dorm to go to classes and never goes anywhere else. The kind of person nobody bothers talking to or even looking at. Someone who'd might as well be invisible, for all the world cares. ...I really don't want to end up like that.
In the Summer I spent almost every day with Sarah and Sandra, and sometimes Chantal. We had a lot of good times that Summer, going up to Lori's, Warped Tour, calling Z99 just to chat with the DJs when we were bored, going to Vet's at 3am to get food and hiding from the police that were following us because we were out way past curfew. I miss it.
These days, most things aren't so fun-filled. I'm not really complaining. Life's not really bad at all; things are going okay. It just feels kind of empty and lonely. It's Summer, but I've seen Sandra maybe 3 times. I see Sarah plenty often, but about 70% of the time she's got Paul with her, leading to me having a major case of "Third Wheel." I still generally get along with everyone in Mountain Lake, but since Freshman year a few of my friendships have gotten a lot closer and I miss people a lot more than I did in past Summers. I spend a lot more time alone than I like to now. It seems that everyone I know is always busy with other friends, boyfriends/girlfriends, or family activities. And on top of that, I had a few great friends graduate this year. Now they're all busy with post-graduation things like moving and getting ready for college. Ashley moved, Sonny went back to New Zealand, and I haven't heard anything from Elsie except for when we talked for a few minutes at Pow Wow. I just kind of wish people could see that I really do miss spending time with them. No matter what things I've said in the past, I love all of my friends a lot; all of them.
I can't believe that by this time next year, I'll be finished with school. I'm going to miss everybody more than I can even put into words. What if when I go off to college I end up being some kind of completely friendless loner? I can totally see myself ending up as one of those college students who only leaves their dorm to go to classes and never goes anywhere else. The kind of person nobody bothers talking to or even looking at. Someone who'd might as well be invisible, for all the world cares. ...I really don't want to end up like that.