fuck you:-:life

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i love how i see "friends" i havent seen in forever and they totaly just blow me off. but i guess i changed or did somehting wrong or some stupid shit. manda doesn't talk to me anymore. though she was one of my best friends, if not my best. the only thing our convo's are full of are, "hey... sup?... cool same here...". croft... well i guess she's got kenny now, glad they're happy together. and i saw someone that really made me happy on friday, even though they haven't always kept their word and everything. if i were realy one of their best friends though, i think they might have been equally as excited to see me and might have just.. oh fuck it. wish i could go back to kindergarden where it's full of playing on the jungle-gym and coloring books.
tonight fucking sucked. it started out great. shano skippied practice to come over and we went somewhere to eat. she took me back home and she went off to her place. later i went out again w/ my sis at w.k. cafe. fun shit. then i get home and do a lil h/w. after that, have a nice lil phone convo w/ shano. um, not. read her xanga while we were still on the phone and asked her about. lets see, october 3rd she had something about a thing that happend last year and was totaly random... thought we fixed it. well i guess not because 5 days ago she put something in there about the same damn thing as if it were going to happen again. um, real fucking cool! ugh i'm so fucking stressed out. i'm out
p.s. pull some racial bullshit and i'll kill you!
me