Tears of sadness being to fall..
So last night I had to say my goodbye to Beth. It was sad but not as sad because I know I'm going to visit her and see her and still talk a lot. It's still going to be different without her though.
I'm dreading Friday when Jacob leaves. I got to see him at work last night and then he called me later and we got to talk finally. I missed doing that lately. We talked about a lot of things to be honest and I started to cry while on the phone with him. Luckily he didn't know. When we got off though, I was bawling. That's how hard I know it's going to be for me without him. Tomorrow is my day to say goodbye to him and I don't want to one bit. I'll get to spend time with him from 2:30-5, but it doesn't seem like enough time to be with him. It's so hard having one of your BEST friends leave and go move 4 hours away from you. Nothing is going to be the same. I don't know if I will be the same. There's going to be that hole in me and I'm not sure how to fill it. It really sucks because I wasn't wanting it to be this hard and make me cry all the time like it's doing. This has been my depression and I know it will be for a while. I need people to go with me to visit him though so any takers and we'll do it. He told me he'd be home Labor Day weekend so I'll get to see him then but that's so far away from now still.
Anyways, sorry this entry was kinda boring but I had to get only a 1/4 of what's going on out. It sucks a lot. =(
I'm dreading Friday when Jacob leaves. I got to see him at work last night and then he called me later and we got to talk finally. I missed doing that lately. We talked about a lot of things to be honest and I started to cry while on the phone with him. Luckily he didn't know. When we got off though, I was bawling. That's how hard I know it's going to be for me without him. Tomorrow is my day to say goodbye to him and I don't want to one bit. I'll get to spend time with him from 2:30-5, but it doesn't seem like enough time to be with him. It's so hard having one of your BEST friends leave and go move 4 hours away from you. Nothing is going to be the same. I don't know if I will be the same. There's going to be that hole in me and I'm not sure how to fill it. It really sucks because I wasn't wanting it to be this hard and make me cry all the time like it's doing. This has been my depression and I know it will be for a while. I need people to go with me to visit him though so any takers and we'll do it. He told me he'd be home Labor Day weekend so I'll get to see him then but that's so far away from now still.
Anyways, sorry this entry was kinda boring but I had to get only a 1/4 of what's going on out. It sucks a lot. =(