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im tired....my day was good until i came home....had a friend angry at me for a reason i thought was not worth being angry about...esp since i havent talked to anyone for a few days now...found out i couldnt chill...found out everyone was doing something whether or not i was there....got yelled at....have to take care of my niece even though im extremely tired....im just tired of alot of things...but then again im not in a good mood right now....i had a long day...long week...i didnt do good on my tests yesterday....and its my fault....im never cutting class to hang out for an hour...thats dumb...all to get a bad grade later...
i feel far from alot of things lately....but closer to God...I know where I hae to be and Im slowly getting there....and I honestly dont care who is still with me as I get closer...people drift in and out of your life...esp. mine....and im learning or have been learning its not about them hell its not about me this life isnt mine....hello Gina!i dont know...i dont know anything anymore....but noone has really been there for me....noone but God...and I have to realize that....why can't i just let go of it all...well i certainly am now...im letting go of everything I hold tightly in my hands...none of it is mine...and none of it will last....
i know its weird but i have a vision in my head of how i feel almost....a clear view of me and eveything else around me blurry because it was all passing me by so fast....but a clear crisp view of me....Im doing so many things right now...but I really feel like Im starting to grow up...and everything is coming y so fast...andIm so much stronger...but i feel like im losing alot of the things i always knew...but im starting to realize or feel if thats the way its suppossed to be then im fine with it.....
things, people, love, relationships...are gunna come and go either way I will always have me and God...and His love....im letting go....
tonight is no good....oh wells theres always tomorrow!
oh i have a new friend....her name is amanda and we have history together and shes super cool!sawweeeeeet.
this entry sucks but its how i feel right now this very moment...peaceout my journal friend...
love always.
i feel far from alot of things lately....but closer to God...I know where I hae to be and Im slowly getting there....and I honestly dont care who is still with me as I get closer...people drift in and out of your life...esp. mine....and im learning or have been learning its not about them hell its not about me this life isnt mine....hello Gina!i dont know...i dont know anything anymore....but noone has really been there for me....noone but God...and I have to realize that....why can't i just let go of it all...well i certainly am now...im letting go of everything I hold tightly in my hands...none of it is mine...and none of it will last....
i know its weird but i have a vision in my head of how i feel almost....a clear view of me and eveything else around me blurry because it was all passing me by so fast....but a clear crisp view of me....Im doing so many things right now...but I really feel like Im starting to grow up...and everything is coming y so fast...andIm so much stronger...but i feel like im losing alot of the things i always knew...but im starting to realize or feel if thats the way its suppossed to be then im fine with it.....
things, people, love, relationships...are gunna come and go either way I will always have me and God...and His love....im letting go....
tonight is no good....oh wells theres always tomorrow!
oh i have a new friend....her name is amanda and we have history together and shes super cool!sawweeeeeet.
this entry sucks but its how i feel right now this very moment...peaceout my journal friend...
love always.