if the sun isn't keeping me warm it better get the fuck out of my eyes
So he dumped me.
It was a pretty typical high-school style dumping. I'm almost certain that he at the very least wants the option of getting back together with her... the manipulative girl finally got her way... I am no longer dating the guy she wants to stay single in case she ever wants to date him again.
Yeah. At first, when he left... naturally I crawled into my bed (that still smells like him) and cried myself to sleep.
About an hour later I got up and realized that I have too much to do to let this shit get me down. I wrapped some christmas presents and Dav showed up because some little blue bird told him I had been dumped. He cheered me up enough to leave the house so I picked up Neuby from Theo's. I drove recklessly and sang really loud to Veruca Salt (which is by far the best angry-at-stupid-boys-music ever). We went to IHOP. Watched Movie. It was nice. I felt good at the end of the night and actually slept well even though I was in a very empty bed. Frankly, it had been too often empty when I was with him anyway.
Then I saw Austin at the coffee shop today. I was in a great mood... all my friends (Especially Ryan and Dav) were really sweet and supportive of me all day. So when I saw him I was able to walk up to him and be perfectly cool.
We talked calmly about staying close. How ridiculous it would be for the two of us to act badly towards each other because of this... as long as we've known each other... it would just be silly. Agreed.
Then I saw King Kong with Ryan. It was nuts. Great effects.
Then went to Blue Cat and saw Aussie again. We played pool like friends and I can honestly say that on my part, the was no awkwardness. Can't speak for him but he seemed fine with everything. I saw Jesse, the birthday girl, and Nathan Gibbs too.
After that I went to Dav's to drop off food and hung out with he and Joel for a while. Had schmoke and talked about sex while they put lighter fluid in bottles and experimented with fire. It was lovely :)
Might be planning a small roadtrip for tomorrow... then dinner at Dav's and maybe some print making at my old friend Austin's house later.
I'm playing it day by day... and hoping that some beautiful, generous man (sugar daddy) will soon come waltzing into my life and make feel as good as I know I am.
Cheers.
It was a pretty typical high-school style dumping. I'm almost certain that he at the very least wants the option of getting back together with her... the manipulative girl finally got her way... I am no longer dating the guy she wants to stay single in case she ever wants to date him again.
Yeah. At first, when he left... naturally I crawled into my bed (that still smells like him) and cried myself to sleep.
About an hour later I got up and realized that I have too much to do to let this shit get me down. I wrapped some christmas presents and Dav showed up because some little blue bird told him I had been dumped. He cheered me up enough to leave the house so I picked up Neuby from Theo's. I drove recklessly and sang really loud to Veruca Salt (which is by far the best angry-at-stupid-boys-music ever). We went to IHOP. Watched Movie. It was nice. I felt good at the end of the night and actually slept well even though I was in a very empty bed. Frankly, it had been too often empty when I was with him anyway.
Then I saw Austin at the coffee shop today. I was in a great mood... all my friends (Especially Ryan and Dav) were really sweet and supportive of me all day. So when I saw him I was able to walk up to him and be perfectly cool.
We talked calmly about staying close. How ridiculous it would be for the two of us to act badly towards each other because of this... as long as we've known each other... it would just be silly. Agreed.
Then I saw King Kong with Ryan. It was nuts. Great effects.
Then went to Blue Cat and saw Aussie again. We played pool like friends and I can honestly say that on my part, the was no awkwardness. Can't speak for him but he seemed fine with everything. I saw Jesse, the birthday girl, and Nathan Gibbs too.
After that I went to Dav's to drop off food and hung out with he and Joel for a while. Had schmoke and talked about sex while they put lighter fluid in bottles and experimented with fire. It was lovely :)
Might be planning a small roadtrip for tomorrow... then dinner at Dav's and maybe some print making at my old friend Austin's house later.
I'm playing it day by day... and hoping that some beautiful, generous man (sugar daddy) will soon come waltzing into my life and make feel as good as I know I am.
Cheers.