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My mom gave me a big binder full of old papers from junior high, and I found one about who I think I will be in 2006. Here's the paper:
"It's 2006. I am now 25 years old and my interior decorating career has skyrocketed. I'm not married yet, even though I've been asked many times. I live in a large house in Houston and I have two cats. I often go to France, Spain, and Italy, but my favorite is France. I've also ventured to Hawaii and the Carribean Islands. For fun I am an actress and play small roles in movies. I am not very famous yet; I'm still waiting for my big break. I love my job. I've always wanted to be an interior decorator. People say I'm one of the best, but I still try to improve. Being discovered as an actress was a total coincidence. In highschool I got a lead role in the school play and was discovered by one of my friends parents. So me and some of the other girls in the play go to be in a JC Penny commercial. I got a couple of offers after that, but not many lately, which is fine because acting would just get in the way of my interior decorating. My current boyfriend is an architect. We aren't very serious though. He is too much of a "commitment" person, which I am not. Well, except for my job of course, but I'm not a workaholic. My life is pretty normal, and I like it this way, even though I would like to be a famous actress."
I got a pretty big kick out of it. It's funny that at 12, I was already setting myself up to date guys who wanted to get all serious and shit (which STILL gets on my nerves.) It's strange how women are stereotyped as the gender who is out looking to "tie a man down" (not literally?) when it's definately the other way around for most everyone I know. But maybe I just don't get along well with girls like that.
I started reading this book about natural cures and the government/medical industry's conspiricy to keep people addicted to synthetic medications and treatments in order to profit (which is why medical insurance is insane). I know everybody knows this, but I have special interest in learning the details because of how I grew up. The other night I turned on the TV at about 2am and there was the author of the book! He was doing an infomercial for his book with tammy fay FUCKING baker. how embaressing. My curiosity/drunkeness took over and i watched the rest of it, but to my dissapointment, she didn't cry a single tear. So I've taken a short break from that book and I'm moving on to a much more interesting one about choosing the right career. So far, I've learned that I was a lot more unhappy at my dad's work than I realized at the time. The book is about how people who have parents that are unhappy, or shouldn't have been married, are raised to seek out unhappiness in their everyday lives, and feel uncomfortable when things are going to badly. It's your basic 'stop sabatoging yourself' book. If nothing else, it's nice to read others opinions on the subject.
In music: debussy is coming along great. i checked out reverie, and i enjoy that one too. so far arabesque, the maid with the flaxen hair, and golliwog's cakewalk are complete. i'm going to perform the girl with the flaxen hair at the end of the month for my recital. i hate performing! i get all nervous, and there is ALWAYS someone willing to step up and tell me where i made a mistake. isn't that just lovely? i've been studying music since i was 5, i don't need someone pointing out that i accidently hit 2 keys instead of one just because they are insecure and don't know how to play, ya know? it's not like i point out mistakes other people make in how they dress, food choices, or the grammer they use. it's rude. yet, for some reason, there are those who feel it is there duty to point out the fact that they noticed an extra note in my song. i think i'll just carry around stickers, and anyone who gives me shit, i'll just give them a sticker. "wow! you heard all the mistakes! here's a gold star!" i'm sure i'm just being paranoid, i am definately one of those artists that doesnt take criticism well, especially when it comes from non-musicians. i had a friend actually heckle me in front of her boyfriend, but she's the type that always has to prove herself, and i haven't played for her since. i havent even called her much since. people dont seem to understand that just because i've done this since i was 5, it doesnt mean i'm perfect, and it certainly doesnt mean that i can handle unwanted criticism. before i play for anyone i tell them "i am sensitive, i dont need a critique. i know exactly how the song should be played, but i get nervous playing for people, i have ever since i was in highschool." hell, maybe i need the shit talk to toughin up so i dont care anymore.
i also got some new books, one includes a slightly motified version of liszt's hungarian rhapsody. i like it because it sounds really intense, like the original, but i can actually sit down and play it, unlike the original. i need to find that old tom and jerry episode where tom plays liszt, and chases jerry through the keys to the music of the hungarian rhapsody. i'm also working on gershwin's "summertime" from porgy and bess. (it was the inspiration for sublime's 'doin time' for those who dont know). i have gone through the first 3 pages of rhapsody and blue, but i think i will have to wait til i have a teacher again (hopefully by the fall) to work on that one because i dont want to develop any bad habits up front. i mean, the songs friggin 30 pages long, there's gotta be some kind of trick to learning it, right?
today is my first full day off in i dont know how long, i can't wait to get in the flippin pool.
"It's 2006. I am now 25 years old and my interior decorating career has skyrocketed. I'm not married yet, even though I've been asked many times. I live in a large house in Houston and I have two cats. I often go to France, Spain, and Italy, but my favorite is France. I've also ventured to Hawaii and the Carribean Islands. For fun I am an actress and play small roles in movies. I am not very famous yet; I'm still waiting for my big break. I love my job. I've always wanted to be an interior decorator. People say I'm one of the best, but I still try to improve. Being discovered as an actress was a total coincidence. In highschool I got a lead role in the school play and was discovered by one of my friends parents. So me and some of the other girls in the play go to be in a JC Penny commercial. I got a couple of offers after that, but not many lately, which is fine because acting would just get in the way of my interior decorating. My current boyfriend is an architect. We aren't very serious though. He is too much of a "commitment" person, which I am not. Well, except for my job of course, but I'm not a workaholic. My life is pretty normal, and I like it this way, even though I would like to be a famous actress."
I got a pretty big kick out of it. It's funny that at 12, I was already setting myself up to date guys who wanted to get all serious and shit (which STILL gets on my nerves.) It's strange how women are stereotyped as the gender who is out looking to "tie a man down" (not literally?) when it's definately the other way around for most everyone I know. But maybe I just don't get along well with girls like that.
I started reading this book about natural cures and the government/medical industry's conspiricy to keep people addicted to synthetic medications and treatments in order to profit (which is why medical insurance is insane). I know everybody knows this, but I have special interest in learning the details because of how I grew up. The other night I turned on the TV at about 2am and there was the author of the book! He was doing an infomercial for his book with tammy fay FUCKING baker. how embaressing. My curiosity/drunkeness took over and i watched the rest of it, but to my dissapointment, she didn't cry a single tear. So I've taken a short break from that book and I'm moving on to a much more interesting one about choosing the right career. So far, I've learned that I was a lot more unhappy at my dad's work than I realized at the time. The book is about how people who have parents that are unhappy, or shouldn't have been married, are raised to seek out unhappiness in their everyday lives, and feel uncomfortable when things are going to badly. It's your basic 'stop sabatoging yourself' book. If nothing else, it's nice to read others opinions on the subject.
In music: debussy is coming along great. i checked out reverie, and i enjoy that one too. so far arabesque, the maid with the flaxen hair, and golliwog's cakewalk are complete. i'm going to perform the girl with the flaxen hair at the end of the month for my recital. i hate performing! i get all nervous, and there is ALWAYS someone willing to step up and tell me where i made a mistake. isn't that just lovely? i've been studying music since i was 5, i don't need someone pointing out that i accidently hit 2 keys instead of one just because they are insecure and don't know how to play, ya know? it's not like i point out mistakes other people make in how they dress, food choices, or the grammer they use. it's rude. yet, for some reason, there are those who feel it is there duty to point out the fact that they noticed an extra note in my song. i think i'll just carry around stickers, and anyone who gives me shit, i'll just give them a sticker. "wow! you heard all the mistakes! here's a gold star!" i'm sure i'm just being paranoid, i am definately one of those artists that doesnt take criticism well, especially when it comes from non-musicians. i had a friend actually heckle me in front of her boyfriend, but she's the type that always has to prove herself, and i haven't played for her since. i havent even called her much since. people dont seem to understand that just because i've done this since i was 5, it doesnt mean i'm perfect, and it certainly doesnt mean that i can handle unwanted criticism. before i play for anyone i tell them "i am sensitive, i dont need a critique. i know exactly how the song should be played, but i get nervous playing for people, i have ever since i was in highschool." hell, maybe i need the shit talk to toughin up so i dont care anymore.
i also got some new books, one includes a slightly motified version of liszt's hungarian rhapsody. i like it because it sounds really intense, like the original, but i can actually sit down and play it, unlike the original. i need to find that old tom and jerry episode where tom plays liszt, and chases jerry through the keys to the music of the hungarian rhapsody. i'm also working on gershwin's "summertime" from porgy and bess. (it was the inspiration for sublime's 'doin time' for those who dont know). i have gone through the first 3 pages of rhapsody and blue, but i think i will have to wait til i have a teacher again (hopefully by the fall) to work on that one because i dont want to develop any bad habits up front. i mean, the songs friggin 30 pages long, there's gotta be some kind of trick to learning it, right?
today is my first full day off in i dont know how long, i can't wait to get in the flippin pool.