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I'm in it right now.
As Sam would say.
I'm so fucking all over the place and I really don't need to be right now. I HATE it when I'm so emotional and so fucking ... pensive or whatever it is. I can't concentrate, I can't do anything productive and I hate it.
I need you right now.
I don't even know who "you" is.
You're so many people.
I love you so fucking much. But in so many different expressions and connotations of love that you couldn't imagine it could all be directed at one person.
Because it's not. Duh.
Fuck, I just need to lose control for a week, 2 weeks, a month. I want to get away and be me, whoever the fuck that is. But I want to do it with someone goddammit. I can't be alone.
I need to fucking be alone with myself and not be so fucking scared of the consequences.
Fuck.
As Sam would say.
I'm so fucking all over the place and I really don't need to be right now. I HATE it when I'm so emotional and so fucking ... pensive or whatever it is. I can't concentrate, I can't do anything productive and I hate it.
I need you right now.
I don't even know who "you" is.
You're so many people.
I love you so fucking much. But in so many different expressions and connotations of love that you couldn't imagine it could all be directed at one person.
Because it's not. Duh.
Fuck, I just need to lose control for a week, 2 weeks, a month. I want to get away and be me, whoever the fuck that is. But I want to do it with someone goddammit. I can't be alone.
I need to fucking be alone with myself and not be so fucking scared of the consequences.
Fuck.