this is not an epiphany
it is a realisation from a deep rooted consciousness that we are in this boat of what does it matter to anybody else that your non-conforming activities make you happy. and the indefinite thrill of being self aware and satiated on that boundless eagerness for the discovery of the uncertain and fantastic. and then contentment of your own actions regular or irregular. but the point is about satisfaction. and it's almost there. and it feels great.