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ive been out of town all day, and though i feel sick to my stomach, my heart is finally in the right place. i feel like i'm a stationary object stuck in the middle of a fast moving crowd, like a streetlight post.
i feel like the only time anyone cares about my existance is when my light is on for that short period of time at the end of the day. this isn't sufficient for me because i constantly need company to feel any sort of happiness.
i get confused when girls dance around me teasing with their red and pink ribbons, and then dash off just as quickly. i get mad at myself for doing the same thing.
i need a crowd that wants to see me as much as i want to see them and i need a girl that will show me as much compassion as i will show her.
edit.sarah castle, among others, care about me and i realize this. :)
i feel like the only time anyone cares about my existance is when my light is on for that short period of time at the end of the day. this isn't sufficient for me because i constantly need company to feel any sort of happiness.
i get confused when girls dance around me teasing with their red and pink ribbons, and then dash off just as quickly. i get mad at myself for doing the same thing.
i need a crowd that wants to see me as much as i want to see them and i need a girl that will show me as much compassion as i will show her.
edit.sarah castle, among others, care about me and i realize this. :)