To love or not to love?
I woke up 6:30 this morning the birds were SOOOOO loud. I was in a field... or sorta hill infront of a swamp. or behind Lake kelly blah. I'm impressed I actually found a place to camp out last night. The air felt like rain so i went home to catch a little more sleep. I counted two vehicles go through the loop last night. A truck and a car but it was to dark to tell anything else. The frogs were great I could almost pretend I was in the country.
Heads...
I remember a lot from last night and I still feel bad. I checked my texts and this is the second time I've said goodbye. The first time I don't remember... this time I do. I was watching the stars thinking things over and these clouds came and wiped out the stars. But the clouds. What about the clouds. hmmm i can't remeber just what now though. The feeling? I was melting into the ground and it was ok.
Heads.....Heads......Heads.....Heads.....Heads....
I didn't get most of the play at all but I might as well be crazy... I go through the motions... I'm sorry... I'm not....Ahhhg
Heads.....
I've been talking to my friend Ci... she's given me advise about...the game...the things girls do... I told her I give up I can't take it anymore and she supported me. Told me that its not my fault and that I just need to find someone else. Yeah alright but I still don't want to. Its like in "how to lose a guy in 10 days" but without the 10 day bet with the guys. But I know she has already moved on by now and probably has a BF lined up.
Heads.....
So why do I push away everyone that I care for to some extent when its going to hurt them and then going to hurt me? I think it comes down to the fact that I don't want to fight for what I care for. The last time... I lost my GF and more importantly one of my best friends. I've been trying to work on the pride issue. Trying Trying Trying
Heads.....Heads.....Heads......Heads..... Heads..... Heads....
I'm left with a problem and final decision. Do I stick to my pride and loose another friend? Do I fight back everything?
Heads...
I know its fake... It just has to be... I'm unable... incapable
Heads.....
My stomache hurts so bad its not funny
Heads.....
AAAHHHHG whats my name? Who am I?
Heads...
Heads...
I remember a lot from last night and I still feel bad. I checked my texts and this is the second time I've said goodbye. The first time I don't remember... this time I do. I was watching the stars thinking things over and these clouds came and wiped out the stars. But the clouds. What about the clouds. hmmm i can't remeber just what now though. The feeling? I was melting into the ground and it was ok.
Heads.....Heads......Heads.....Heads.....Heads....
I didn't get most of the play at all but I might as well be crazy... I go through the motions... I'm sorry... I'm not....Ahhhg
Heads.....
I've been talking to my friend Ci... she's given me advise about...the game...the things girls do... I told her I give up I can't take it anymore and she supported me. Told me that its not my fault and that I just need to find someone else. Yeah alright but I still don't want to. Its like in "how to lose a guy in 10 days" but without the 10 day bet with the guys. But I know she has already moved on by now and probably has a BF lined up.
Heads.....
So why do I push away everyone that I care for to some extent when its going to hurt them and then going to hurt me? I think it comes down to the fact that I don't want to fight for what I care for. The last time... I lost my GF and more importantly one of my best friends. I've been trying to work on the pride issue. Trying Trying Trying
Heads.....Heads.....Heads......Heads..... Heads..... Heads....
I'm left with a problem and final decision. Do I stick to my pride and loose another friend? Do I fight back everything?
Heads...
I know its fake... It just has to be... I'm unable... incapable
Heads.....
My stomache hurts so bad its not funny
Heads.....
AAAHHHHG whats my name? Who am I?
Heads...