my first marriage ruined my expectations

Sep 06, 2007 12:06

So, as of late I've been playing maple story. I'm not terribly proud of this fact - mostly cause ms isn't the greatest game(playing-wise) and most of the players are a few years younger than me. I'm willing to ignore both of those facts, though. i play because my brother is in love with that game. when i play, he gets increadibly excited and he spends most of his time with my character when i'm on.
usually, i'm the one who gets him to try new stuff and is the one to guide him through everything. i'm the know-it-all, he asks me all kinds of questions and assumes (and so far, rightfullly) that i know the answer. aside from bare basics, i'm pretty clueless in ms. so it's his chance to feel like he's more knowledgable than me. either way, we spend time together when we're far apart - so i think it's good for him (and me).

but that's not the whole story.. i have this obsession with making particularly cute characters. i try to make them pretty girlish, make them stand out, and make them cute and coordinated. i hate it when people pick typical traits. it makes it harder for your to figure which chara is yours. that and why look ordinary when you have so many options?  so yeah, i have a darn cute chara. i've been playing two or three days, and i've gotten a dozen or two 'can i be your bf' type questions and one asking if i want to get married. that's not bad for someone who isn't even lvl 20 yet. but a part of what bugs me is that all but one or two people who asked are pretty noob-ish. they're either slightly above my level or way below it. two were okay with words.... ish.. .. making fun of their friends and gay bashing was good gifrlfriend-picking-conversation to them. the rest just hit on me straight flat. most of the problem lies in that, once i see their lvl, i have no interest in being their "gf" er whatever in the game.

in RO i married. i was really happy my husband was pretty good. he was only 13 (granted i was 17) and he had four charas, two of which were in the 80's of their third job, one first job 90's and one brand new. i married the 90' first job sin. now i have a thing for sins. we got along really well, i remember, even though i was a good 55 levels under him i managed to get this rare item after an entire night of chasing a mini-boss for a rare drop. it was this angel band that i had to go and make into angel ears for him (all his chara names started with 'angelic') took me a whole day (which is actually pretty good now that i think about it). i died a lot though. to be honest, it was a wedding present. he helped me lvl to )i think it was lvl 30 or something, so we could get married. i had a hard time getting gifts for him since he was pretty far above me.. but my chara was really lucky when it came to drops.  in the end, she was more sucessful than he was. i stopped playing at lvl 80 of my third job, but bad a ton more items and money in storage than he had in his charas combined.

the marriage? messy-ish divorce, though we were friends. it was a shame, i kinda regretted divorcing him after i was said and done, we got along really well with each other and tried to take good care of one another - but something went awry and i wanted to get out before it really blew up. maybe that was the wrong thing to do.. afterwards, it was awkward. he took another bride to spite me.. and i just turned down very public proposals to let him know i was getting them.  he was a pretty nice guy tho.. i wonder what he's been up to..

this probably sounds really really weird to someone who doesn't play cute-sy MMOs. >.< don't judge me!

either way, i can't see myself carrying gf duties (ie, the chatting and lvling and all that crap) with someone really noobish. -_- something about that makes me feel really shallow.
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