:)
all i can do is smile. i have no updated this in a very long time.
i was reading back and my entries are pretty much an emotional roller coaster. i never realized before what a mess i have always been. and truthfully i haven't changed much.
sometimes im OK and sometimes im doing really bad.
the loss of my baby girl hurt my marriage so much that i dont think we ever recuperated from it. we had another baby boy who is already two years old and he is precious great kid. i had postpartum really bad but its gone. i love my son and i like taking care of him. sure i wish i had some more free time.. but truly.. who doesn't?!!? we are still working in our marriage but sometimes i think we convince ourselves that we are trying when truly we are not trying. who knows... not ready to figure that out right now.
overall i'm the same. i keep making bad decisions....
and i keep making good ones.
i say that im nowhere near as independent as i used to be and i dont believe in myself much.
but i think that happens to all marriage woman that lose themselves in the marriage and being a mother.
i love my son.
i will update more often :)
i was reading back and my entries are pretty much an emotional roller coaster. i never realized before what a mess i have always been. and truthfully i haven't changed much.
sometimes im OK and sometimes im doing really bad.
the loss of my baby girl hurt my marriage so much that i dont think we ever recuperated from it. we had another baby boy who is already two years old and he is precious great kid. i had postpartum really bad but its gone. i love my son and i like taking care of him. sure i wish i had some more free time.. but truly.. who doesn't?!!? we are still working in our marriage but sometimes i think we convince ourselves that we are trying when truly we are not trying. who knows... not ready to figure that out right now.
overall i'm the same. i keep making bad decisions....
and i keep making good ones.
i say that im nowhere near as independent as i used to be and i dont believe in myself much.
but i think that happens to all marriage woman that lose themselves in the marriage and being a mother.
i love my son.
i will update more often :)