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fromduringchem: So here in chem, while drawing Lewis Dot Structures, something clicked. And I was thinking, and...I need to grow up. I can no longer be that hopelessly romantic and optimistic idealist. Sometimes it seems as if being happy all the time only increases the impact of sadness. I always used to think that cynicism was cold and harsh and unnecessary. But thinking about it... it's really kind of realistic. And it seems as if cynics "get things done." I seem to be sitting around, letting things happen to me, which isn't right. I should be out doing things for myself, shouldn't I? ....You cannot depend on anyone else to make you happy. No one else will, because no one else can. You are the only one that can decide how you feel on any given day.
I'm finding myself watching people around me grow in so many different ways, and achieve so many amazing things. And I try to be supportive. We all should be supportive, shouldn't we? But at the same time, I am just watching them. I'm learning so much from other people, but at the same time, I feel bad for it, because there is nothing for me to teach them back.
I must have been wrong. I agree with some things that I thought and think, but I can't help but be indecisive. But I do know that "growing up" is natural- you just do. But at the same time, you do have to choose to grow up yourself. There's this line in a Modest Mouse song that I absolutely love: "You're hopelessly hopeless...I hope so, for you." And to me, that is one of the most beautiful lines ever written. Because the truth is, in the big scheme of things, we have to have hope. All there is is life, and it's there for us to live. And if we aren't happy while doing it, then what is it worth? If we aren't optimistic: if we don't always know and full-heartedly believe that things will always turn out alright, and be wonderful, we can't be happy. If we don't allow ourselves to just sit and think every once in awhile, then there's no point in anything.
There's something we can learn from everyone we know and everyone that we don't know. Everyone has something to say...something to teach us. And I want to listen. And although sometimes I feel inadequate because I really don't have anything unique to say back...those things will come naturally.
I don't know. I guess I don't know how I feel. All I do know, however, is that I don't need to "grow up." I need to be happy. That is what I am here for. And if I don't make myself be, who will?
What do you think? About anything, and everything. What do you think?
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I'm finding myself watching people around me grow in so many different ways, and achieve so many amazing things. And I try to be supportive. We all should be supportive, shouldn't we? But at the same time, I am just watching them. I'm learning so much from other people, but at the same time, I feel bad for it, because there is nothing for me to teach them back.
I must have been wrong. I agree with some things that I thought and think, but I can't help but be indecisive. But I do know that "growing up" is natural- you just do. But at the same time, you do have to choose to grow up yourself. There's this line in a Modest Mouse song that I absolutely love: "You're hopelessly hopeless...I hope so, for you." And to me, that is one of the most beautiful lines ever written. Because the truth is, in the big scheme of things, we have to have hope. All there is is life, and it's there for us to live. And if we aren't happy while doing it, then what is it worth? If we aren't optimistic: if we don't always know and full-heartedly believe that things will always turn out alright, and be wonderful, we can't be happy. If we don't allow ourselves to just sit and think every once in awhile, then there's no point in anything.
There's something we can learn from everyone we know and everyone that we don't know. Everyone has something to say...something to teach us. And I want to listen. And although sometimes I feel inadequate because I really don't have anything unique to say back...those things will come naturally.
I don't know. I guess I don't know how I feel. All I do know, however, is that I don't need to "grow up." I need to be happy. That is what I am here for. And if I don't make myself be, who will?
What do you think? About anything, and everything. What do you think?
<3