Fuck Expectations
You know I was in a pretty good mood this morning. Despite the fact I have two tests looming over my head I was getting by just fine.
I go to my 12:00 class...and my prof decides to piss on my parade. He starts off by assigning us more homework to do. The last set of problems he gave us isn't even due till Friday. This set is going to be due the Monday we get back from the break...and do you know why? It's so he can squeeze our next test in by Friday. That's right...I have my second exam in there the Friday we get back from the break. We've barely had enough material...so he's adding back in material from the last test he feels we didn't learn well enough.
I know it may not seem that bad...but you should see these homeworks. They are very in depth and usually require several trips to his office for questions. Since we have to do it over the break the only day I'll be able to ask questions is tomorrow! So I'm going to have to finish the last set _and_ start the new set tomorrow if I have any hope of finishing it...
That was a low blow...but I was still feeling pretty good. When I went to my next class I was fairly confident I got a 90+ on that test we took Monday. We get it back...82. I lost 16 points on one problem. It was one I had completely reworked after doing it wrong the first time. I reworked it in the right manner...just not the right method. In simple terms...there's two ways to do these types of problems and I mixed them up by accident. I say by accident because there were 3 other problems on the test similar to it that I did perfectly. Normally I don't care about making a B on a test...but every time I do worse than the class average (85.5) it irritates me. Not to mention I always compare myself to Peyton and he happened to get a 96 on it.
Every little thing that could go wrong today _is_ going wrong and its slowly adding up to a big fucking headache. Shit...I'm writing this in the EE Suite because my card was coming up as invalid for all the other computer labs in the building. WTF?!
Kitty still hasn't gotten in touch with me... It really wouldn't surprise me if I find out later today that the Halo night has been called off and my upcoming trip made null and void.
To make matters even worse it's "Career Day". Just another reminder of the fact that I have no job prospects for this summer.
Just to add to the pile...my brother called me last night. I swear he only calls me when he needs something. I don't really ever call him for shits and giggles either...but every time I pick up the phone its like "Yo! Hey man...how would you like to do me a big favor?" Normally I don't mind but this time he wanted me to give him my mom's credit card number because she wouldn't let me get some concert ticket. I told him I wasn't going to do that with her card...but at the same time I felt like a hypocritical asshole. The last month or so I've been whipping out that card to buy a couple meals every week. Every time I do I have a little "compromise" session with my concience. "Well...this meal is only $14 and I didn't even use the card for gas this week." "I'll buy this $20 present for Lauren on the card since I'm going to be spending close to $50 on the meal myself." I remember when I wouldn't even use that card for emergencies...and now I'll use it whenever I'm too lazy to drive to the ATM.
There's so much homework to be done now, there's Senior Design starting to loom in the distance, and my mediocre performances to overcome if I want to keep from making any C's this semester. I really don't think I'll be leaving for home on a good note.
This is a pretty fucking "emo" post...but I'm in a bad mood damn it.
Would it be so much to ask for something little to go _right_ today instead of wrong? With the way things are going...I'm truely dreading this test tonight. The worst thing is...I bet the fucker give us the exam for the first hour and a half...and then lectures for the rest of the period. Grrr...He actually wanted us to do homework for today that I got pushed back till the Wednesday we get back (on the stipulation that he could give us more homework tonight due the same day).
Why?! Why the fuck are there some professors that just don't understand the gravity of the shit they drop on us??
Fuck them.
I go to my 12:00 class...and my prof decides to piss on my parade. He starts off by assigning us more homework to do. The last set of problems he gave us isn't even due till Friday. This set is going to be due the Monday we get back from the break...and do you know why? It's so he can squeeze our next test in by Friday. That's right...I have my second exam in there the Friday we get back from the break. We've barely had enough material...so he's adding back in material from the last test he feels we didn't learn well enough.
I know it may not seem that bad...but you should see these homeworks. They are very in depth and usually require several trips to his office for questions. Since we have to do it over the break the only day I'll be able to ask questions is tomorrow! So I'm going to have to finish the last set _and_ start the new set tomorrow if I have any hope of finishing it...
That was a low blow...but I was still feeling pretty good. When I went to my next class I was fairly confident I got a 90+ on that test we took Monday. We get it back...82. I lost 16 points on one problem. It was one I had completely reworked after doing it wrong the first time. I reworked it in the right manner...just not the right method. In simple terms...there's two ways to do these types of problems and I mixed them up by accident. I say by accident because there were 3 other problems on the test similar to it that I did perfectly. Normally I don't care about making a B on a test...but every time I do worse than the class average (85.5) it irritates me. Not to mention I always compare myself to Peyton and he happened to get a 96 on it.
Every little thing that could go wrong today _is_ going wrong and its slowly adding up to a big fucking headache. Shit...I'm writing this in the EE Suite because my card was coming up as invalid for all the other computer labs in the building. WTF?!
Kitty still hasn't gotten in touch with me... It really wouldn't surprise me if I find out later today that the Halo night has been called off and my upcoming trip made null and void.
To make matters even worse it's "Career Day". Just another reminder of the fact that I have no job prospects for this summer.
Just to add to the pile...my brother called me last night. I swear he only calls me when he needs something. I don't really ever call him for shits and giggles either...but every time I pick up the phone its like "Yo! Hey man...how would you like to do me a big favor?" Normally I don't mind but this time he wanted me to give him my mom's credit card number because she wouldn't let me get some concert ticket. I told him I wasn't going to do that with her card...but at the same time I felt like a hypocritical asshole. The last month or so I've been whipping out that card to buy a couple meals every week. Every time I do I have a little "compromise" session with my concience. "Well...this meal is only $14 and I didn't even use the card for gas this week." "I'll buy this $20 present for Lauren on the card since I'm going to be spending close to $50 on the meal myself." I remember when I wouldn't even use that card for emergencies...and now I'll use it whenever I'm too lazy to drive to the ATM.
There's so much homework to be done now, there's Senior Design starting to loom in the distance, and my mediocre performances to overcome if I want to keep from making any C's this semester. I really don't think I'll be leaving for home on a good note.
This is a pretty fucking "emo" post...but I'm in a bad mood damn it.
Would it be so much to ask for something little to go _right_ today instead of wrong? With the way things are going...I'm truely dreading this test tonight. The worst thing is...I bet the fucker give us the exam for the first hour and a half...and then lectures for the rest of the period. Grrr...He actually wanted us to do homework for today that I got pushed back till the Wednesday we get back (on the stipulation that he could give us more homework tonight due the same day).
Why?! Why the fuck are there some professors that just don't understand the gravity of the shit they drop on us??
Fuck them.