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I’m sitting here bored to death, and over tired, as well as thinking way to much. Man that’s not such a good combination, that's for sure. I haven’t had a decent conversation with Robert in weeks, and I really feel like shit. You know when you get used to seeing someone almost every single day, Its pretty damn hard to get through a week without seeing them. I haven’t seen Robert at school, or at the mall at all, and I want so bad to see him.
What the fuck is wrong with me? Here I’ve been complaining that he’s hurt me (emotionally) but yet I still want to be with him and see him as much as possible. I can’t even understand the things I’ve been going through, the feelings - again I feel as if everything is fucked up... There’s nothing to do about it. I finally had a chance to talk to Shelly (his mom) the other night when she was at work... We became pretty close as well as his sister and I even before Robert and I had got together. Anyways I really just want to sit down and talk with her - like we used to do, I miss it. But every time I see her at work there’s always a lot of people there, and we only get a chance to talk for a few seconds. My god she’s one of the few people that I can talk to about so much stuff, and I know that's the other thing I miss so much, just talking with her, not just Robert.
So I'm all messed up again and feel like shit again... This all just makes me want to sit in a room by myself and cry so hard. That probably wouldn't make me feel any better but thats just how I feel... fuck do I ever miss him, I can't stop thinking about every little thing we used to do together. Its impossible to forget it all..
Enough of this I've got to go....
XoXo
What the fuck is wrong with me? Here I’ve been complaining that he’s hurt me (emotionally) but yet I still want to be with him and see him as much as possible. I can’t even understand the things I’ve been going through, the feelings - again I feel as if everything is fucked up... There’s nothing to do about it. I finally had a chance to talk to Shelly (his mom) the other night when she was at work... We became pretty close as well as his sister and I even before Robert and I had got together. Anyways I really just want to sit down and talk with her - like we used to do, I miss it. But every time I see her at work there’s always a lot of people there, and we only get a chance to talk for a few seconds. My god she’s one of the few people that I can talk to about so much stuff, and I know that's the other thing I miss so much, just talking with her, not just Robert.
So I'm all messed up again and feel like shit again... This all just makes me want to sit in a room by myself and cry so hard. That probably wouldn't make me feel any better but thats just how I feel... fuck do I ever miss him, I can't stop thinking about every little thing we used to do together. Its impossible to forget it all..
Enough of this I've got to go....
XoXo