just forget me.

[_chasta]

Ive had one hell of a weekend. Friday I was supposed to go to the hotel party with my cousin but my cell ran out of min so she couldnt get ahold of me, so hey! guess who missed it??!!! sooo pissed about that. but I stayed up talking to craig all night asking each other crazy ass questions, it was fun lol. Then Saturday Jamie woke me up when she got home n dragged me out of the house to run around with her. We ran to get mary, went to the mall, I got coop ONE OF MANY of her christmas presents. I got Amanda her b-day present. Then I went home, got ready, went to Amandas suprise b-day party. fun fun fun. Im one of her 4 friends. felt way special to be the only one thats known her for so long :) ((12 years and counting!)). Then Jamie came and got me, went to the bowling alley, saw Jessica Stanley there. I see her EVERYWHERE I go, I've seen her every weekend for the past like.. 3 months straight its crazy. lol Then me jamie kerri mary bean ashley and jason took everyone home (jason n bean to beans house, mary and kerri to their house, then ashley home). I was being the biggest bitch in the car, any station they liked a song on ide change it. and I played the Banana REALLY loud, and they aren't rock people, they like the "yo yo yo"'s n "wud up g"'s n "pop that thang"'s ....Im a o k without it. Then we came home, and I got online, and continued with the conversation with Terrence. hes my all time best friend, has been for like 6 years. but he has this *edit* girlfriend whom hates me because me and terrence are so tight. Sooo she decides to bitch and complain SOOO much that he quits talking to me.. how fucking nice is that shit?! idk me and terrence were eh a while back for like a month n it was just stupid shit anyways, n so shes been fucked up about that ever since, and just cant get it out of her head. she thinks im out to steal him or some bullshit like that and im not at all. i mean hes my fucking best friend, i confided in him, i tell him stuff that i wouldnt and never will tell anybody else, and now that thats gone, its like wtf ok so who do I talk to my fucking cat?!?!? I think its such bullshit. but whatever I guess. he can do what he has to do I'll just be here going on with my life WITHOUT one of the 3 most important people in my life and PRETEND that everything is a o k. so idk wtf is going on with that, or how thats going to end up. Then i was talking to kristen at the same time, and she didnt want me to be alone that night. so she asked me to come over, n I said idk. next thing I know, shes at my window. so I go open the door, walk back to my room, I get in my room, turn around, look at her, and I just start crying so hard. she just gave me a hug n we stood there for like 10 min and I just cried the whole time :( I cant stand this. so I went to her house, talked with T more, so did she, then we just stopped, watch the end of darkness falls, then went up in her room n talked FOREVER. then went to bed. woke up, watched this movie with a special ed kid in it that looked like Terrence we laughed our asses off the whole time (4 hour long movie too lol) then I came home, talked to T more. and.. now im here I guess writing in this thing. but Im goin to take a shower and call kristen. peaceeeee

***had to edit this for some lame reasons.