A bit of self reflection feels good for the soul
I'm in a quiet mood. I don't have much to say right now; I'm still trying to get my head back on straigh from last night. Hah. Haha. I crack me up. No, really, anyway. I'm just feeling...I don't know. I don't know who to talk to and I don't know what to believe. The world just keeps coming in closer around me, and I feel like this knowledge of the future is going to cause my lungs to collapse if I remain silent another minute. I feel so alone, so isolated in this knowing, in this visceral knowledge of the future. How is it possible that having my eyes opened has done nothing but to blind me further. I'm just so confused, still nursing my wounds and not making any sense.
I started this journal over a year ago. A turn of the wheel, a revolution of the earth ago. More love than I ever could have imagined has my life in that time, between my sisters, Leo, and especially Cole. This love has been coupled with intense, reality shattering sorrow and pain that drove me from the arms of those who love me, more than once. I've always felt amplified- I loved intensely as a girl sometimes 3 or 4 guys a week, and I felt that inevitable fallout intensely as well. I've felt arguably the most pretective of my powers sice we got them- I've loved being a witch since the first minute. I have all of these overpowering emotions flowing through this Halliwell blood at a hundred miles an hour- no wonder I feel alone. No wonder the Elders knew I could handle the isolation of being an empath; it's a state of being I've known my entire life. I've reached out to so many in my life, trying to bridge that gap and still these feelings.
It's been a year. Where am I now?
Where am I now?
I started this journal over a year ago. A turn of the wheel, a revolution of the earth ago. More love than I ever could have imagined has my life in that time, between my sisters, Leo, and especially Cole. This love has been coupled with intense, reality shattering sorrow and pain that drove me from the arms of those who love me, more than once. I've always felt amplified- I loved intensely as a girl sometimes 3 or 4 guys a week, and I felt that inevitable fallout intensely as well. I've felt arguably the most pretective of my powers sice we got them- I've loved being a witch since the first minute. I have all of these overpowering emotions flowing through this Halliwell blood at a hundred miles an hour- no wonder I feel alone. No wonder the Elders knew I could handle the isolation of being an empath; it's a state of being I've known my entire life. I've reached out to so many in my life, trying to bridge that gap and still these feelings.
It's been a year. Where am I now?
Where am I now?