Jan 23, 2004 14:04
I've been glowing since dinner with Cole the other night. It's so nice when we can go out and not have to worry about the world crumbling down around us, like it has so many times in the past. I don't consider us pretending that we have a normal life. I don't want a normal life. I want my life. Our life. I don't want to feel burdened by my gifts, as I have been feeling about my empathy lately. I think the other night made me realize how lucky I am.
It was so hard for Prue, when she was empathic a few years back. It wasn't meant for her. She's the stronger, more action oriented one. For her, it was more of a curse than a blessing. I'm sure I would be overwhelmed if I could suddenly astrally locate myself around.
The more I was remembering this, though, the more it occurred to me that my empathy, even if it can be difficult to deal with, is a sacred gift that TPTB know that I can handle. It reminds me of a quote from St. Augustine. Yes, even Wiccans can gain wisdom from other spiritualities. Anyway. "The Will of God will not lead you where the Grace of God cannot keep you." Will and Grace. Got it, Check. The key to dealing with my empathy is a gay NBC sitcom. No, that's not what I mean. What I mean is that, in my case, the Elders are looking out for me. I know that I'll be okay. That I WON'T be overwhelmed by the feelings of others. I will not lick strangers' faces every time I walk by someone who is humming an Sade song. I will not tackle people who are thinking about football.
I'll be okay.