theatrical_muse: Who do you need to forgive?
Who do you need to forgive?
Coulda sworn I've answered this damn question before. But yeah whatever. I've already forgiven most of those that hurt me. Though guess still haven't quite forgiven my old man for not bein' there for me, Alona, and my momma when we needed him. Things woulda been allot easier with a father around. I coulda just been a boy, and not have to feel like it was my job to be the protector and caretaker. But Momma Gunn never said a bad word about him. Just that like most men, he wasn't perfect, but was still a good man that loved us. So do try to remember the positive. To remember that whatever reasons why he let his family down, that is still my father no matter what.
So yeah, my momma raised me to be a good God fearin' Christian. She didn't believe in hatin' anyone. And that you should pray for those that do you wrong. Pray that they see the error of their ways and find the forgiveness and love they need. That we all should strive to be more like Jesus and forgive and love our enemies.
Yet I didn't have my momma's strength or faith. And turnin' the other cheek is something I had a tough time doin'. A brother can't grow up in South Central. In one of the worst neighborhoods in LA. A place devoid of hope for any future. With failing schools, no jobs, no hope for a better tomorrow. A dog eat dog world, where it's all about survival. And doin' whatever it takes to live to see another day. When your only concern is where the next meal is comin' for you and your little sis. Then don't have time to forgive anyone. Just have time to build up a tough exterior. To become the toughest badass there is. Make your own rules, and do whatever it takes to survive. So I got a criminal record a mile long. But I survived, and that was what mattered most then.
Just like those I grew up with. We never asked for forgiveness for whatever shit we done. We just asked to be treated fairly. To be given a chance to live. The bad choices we made, wasn't because we was evil. It was because we didn't know any better. Wasn't taught right from wrong. Or what is good and what is bad. Where like lost sheep, that needed a sheperd to find them, and show them the way. Eventually I came to realize that, and so I became not only the protector of my sister, but of my entire hood. That's what I tried to do. I tried to actually make my neighborhood better, and safer for everyone.
Then I grew up, and moved on to try to help the city I love. Help Angel to make Los Angeles better by helpin' all those that needed our help. By fightin' all the evil in the world.
So yeah I've never been much for the forgiveness. I probably need to forgive all those that make the world a worst place. Forgive the criminals, the drug pushers, the stupid street thugs that thinks violence is the only answer. Forgive all those that destroy instead of create. And most of all forgive those who are supposed to make things better, the so called political leaders for lettin' down those that need 'em most. Yet, I really don't think they need my forgiveness. Cause first one has to change. Has to try to change to do better, and make things better. To admit that what they've done is wrong, and try to fix things. Then, and only then can they truly be forgiven.
Muse: Charles Gunn
Fandom: Angel The Series
Word Count: 623
Coulda sworn I've answered this damn question before. But yeah whatever. I've already forgiven most of those that hurt me. Though guess still haven't quite forgiven my old man for not bein' there for me, Alona, and my momma when we needed him. Things woulda been allot easier with a father around. I coulda just been a boy, and not have to feel like it was my job to be the protector and caretaker. But Momma Gunn never said a bad word about him. Just that like most men, he wasn't perfect, but was still a good man that loved us. So do try to remember the positive. To remember that whatever reasons why he let his family down, that is still my father no matter what.
So yeah, my momma raised me to be a good God fearin' Christian. She didn't believe in hatin' anyone. And that you should pray for those that do you wrong. Pray that they see the error of their ways and find the forgiveness and love they need. That we all should strive to be more like Jesus and forgive and love our enemies.
Yet I didn't have my momma's strength or faith. And turnin' the other cheek is something I had a tough time doin'. A brother can't grow up in South Central. In one of the worst neighborhoods in LA. A place devoid of hope for any future. With failing schools, no jobs, no hope for a better tomorrow. A dog eat dog world, where it's all about survival. And doin' whatever it takes to live to see another day. When your only concern is where the next meal is comin' for you and your little sis. Then don't have time to forgive anyone. Just have time to build up a tough exterior. To become the toughest badass there is. Make your own rules, and do whatever it takes to survive. So I got a criminal record a mile long. But I survived, and that was what mattered most then.
Just like those I grew up with. We never asked for forgiveness for whatever shit we done. We just asked to be treated fairly. To be given a chance to live. The bad choices we made, wasn't because we was evil. It was because we didn't know any better. Wasn't taught right from wrong. Or what is good and what is bad. Where like lost sheep, that needed a sheperd to find them, and show them the way. Eventually I came to realize that, and so I became not only the protector of my sister, but of my entire hood. That's what I tried to do. I tried to actually make my neighborhood better, and safer for everyone.
Then I grew up, and moved on to try to help the city I love. Help Angel to make Los Angeles better by helpin' all those that needed our help. By fightin' all the evil in the world.
So yeah I've never been much for the forgiveness. I probably need to forgive all those that make the world a worst place. Forgive the criminals, the drug pushers, the stupid street thugs that thinks violence is the only answer. Forgive all those that destroy instead of create. And most of all forgive those who are supposed to make things better, the so called political leaders for lettin' down those that need 'em most. Yet, I really don't think they need my forgiveness. Cause first one has to change. Has to try to change to do better, and make things better. To admit that what they've done is wrong, and try to fix things. Then, and only then can they truly be forgiven.
Muse: Charles Gunn
Fandom: Angel The Series
Word Count: 623