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Today was just like any of my days.
Woke up around 2:30. I was SOO TIRED! Jackie was sleeping on the floor. Cause im a pimp and got the bed last nite. ;p Oh well im sure she didnt mind. She had QUITE a nite. haha <3
I went online for a while. Chit chatted till she got up. When she got up we walked to my house. We were sweatin balls. I swear. We got to my house, chilled for a while. Then we walked to Colleen's house. And we were planning on going swimming, but the water was FREEZING. So we watched some dike movie called MONSTER! It was pretty grusome lol. Then my SISTER SHOWS UP AT COLLEEN'S. Woah! She asked if we wanted to go to some car show? So we all got ready and then went to go get my mom and my mom FREAKED OUT cause april was gone with the car for too long. Shes such a bitch! I got to drive tho :D. So my mom dropped us back off at Colleen's. Then Chris picked all of us up and we went to Brandon Stevens house. Duane, and Wayne were there. So we just chilled at Brandon's and watched this really funny movie with lots of naked people in it. It was amusing. "WOAH ITS A NUDE BEACH! FULL OF PENIS'S! RUNNNNNN!!" Yeh haha. Funny funny. Then Chris drove me home.
Lately!
I have been realizing that i have been a really big bitch. I dont know if im just taking all my frustrations out on everybody else because of what im going through rite now with my whole "living situations" and stuff. But im starting to feel really bad about it. I dont want to despise practically everybody because i dont like something that they happen to do. But it just works out that way. I just want things to go back to the way they USED to be.
- I was cool with everybody
- I was nice to everybody
- I talked to everybody
- I had something to do every single day
Everything was just. Perfect. Well, almost perfect. But now almost all of that is gone. I have all my best friends. And i love them all to death. But i just dont understand some things.
Why do people despise me over the stupidest reasons? I dont understand what i did wrong to them. I strike back because i dont feel like being shit on all the time from people. People dont like me because maybe they're boyfriend had a little crush on me back in the day. But it doesnt even matter because he screwed me over anyways, and now he doesnt like me neither. I just dont get it. I dont have half the friends i "thought" would be there. And all the guys i used to talk to. They dont talk to me neither. I talk to JOSH. And im falling apart from him too. And i cant stand it. I just dont know what "i" did wrong. Seriously. I never did anything wrong to any of them. They're all just "moving on" to better/new friends. And i dont get it. OH well tho. I guess no matter how much older you get, clicks will still form.
Just stating:
I Miss The Old Days.
Thats all. :)