i've been thinkin.

[_chances_]

awhile back, tricia told me to listen to the words in this song, that it was about me. and i've been thinkin about it all a lot and she's so right. it completely describes everything...

See my days are cold without you,
but i'm hurtin while i'm with you
and though my hear can't take no more
i keep on running back to you
see my days are cold without you
but i'm hurting while i'm with you
and though my heart can't take no more i keep on running back to you.

baby i don't know why your treating me so bad
you said you love me, no one above me
and i was all you had
and though my heart is beatin for you
i can't stop crying
i don't know how
i allow you to treat me this way and still i stay

baby i don't know why you wanna do me wrong
see when i'm home, i'm all alone
and you are always gone
and boy you know i really love you
i can't deny
i can't see how you could bring me to so many tears
after all these years

ohh,
i trusted you, i trusted you
so sad, so sad
what love will make you do
all the things that we accept
be the things that we regret
to all of my ladies
fell me c'mon sing with me

see when i get the strength to leave
you always tell me that you need me
and i'm weak because i believe you
and i'm mad because i love you
so i stop and think that maybe
you can learn to appreaciate me
then it all remains the same that
you ain't never gonna change

baby,
why you hurt me?
leave me and desert me
boy, i gave you all my heart
and all you did was tear it up
looking out my window
knowing that i should go
even when i pack my bags
this something always holds me back..

(foolish, ashanti)