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I'm only writing in this because I dont know what else to do. I'm so overwhelmed I just need to organize my thoughts I guess a little.
I hate school. I dont know what I want to do with the rest of my life and I'm stressed. I'm stressed 24 hours of the day. I wake up stressed about school, money, the future, etc. and go to bed stressed every single day. I dont tell anyone because everyone has problems and its not going to help. My parents think I dont care about anything and they get mad at me, but they really have no idea. I dont think I should have to prove how much I worry about stuff to my parents so instead I just get into fights with them, never really explaining myself.
The only thing saving me is that in about 90 days I'll be out of here. Next semester I'll be in Italy. I need a change of scenery. I need a change of pace. I need to get away from everything and everyone from awhile. I was talking to one of my roommates the other day about how I just want to start a new life when I'm abroad and never come back. I want to just move to Greece, find some sort of work and just live. (and maybe a husband while I'm at it ha) Support myself and not have to worry about anything back here. People do that right? I know its totally unrealistic, but its nice to think about.
I usually am a really easy going person. I try not to let things bother me and I dont get upset really easily. Its like I cant dig myself out of this whole. Even on the weekends when I'm out with my friends, theres a constant stress in the back of my ahead about things I need to do, or should be doing, or whatever.
I'm really unhappy. thats harder to admit than I thought.
I hate school. I dont know what I want to do with the rest of my life and I'm stressed. I'm stressed 24 hours of the day. I wake up stressed about school, money, the future, etc. and go to bed stressed every single day. I dont tell anyone because everyone has problems and its not going to help. My parents think I dont care about anything and they get mad at me, but they really have no idea. I dont think I should have to prove how much I worry about stuff to my parents so instead I just get into fights with them, never really explaining myself.
The only thing saving me is that in about 90 days I'll be out of here. Next semester I'll be in Italy. I need a change of scenery. I need a change of pace. I need to get away from everything and everyone from awhile. I was talking to one of my roommates the other day about how I just want to start a new life when I'm abroad and never come back. I want to just move to Greece, find some sort of work and just live. (and maybe a husband while I'm at it ha) Support myself and not have to worry about anything back here. People do that right? I know its totally unrealistic, but its nice to think about.
I usually am a really easy going person. I try not to let things bother me and I dont get upset really easily. Its like I cant dig myself out of this whole. Even on the weekends when I'm out with my friends, theres a constant stress in the back of my ahead about things I need to do, or should be doing, or whatever.
I'm really unhappy. thats harder to admit than I thought.