Oct 31, 2006 00:40
I have met one of the most amazing people ever in my short 19 (almost 20) year run. Tonight I have learned and I have listened. You hear, but you don't feel what you hear. I have been a victim of that. I thought I was in love. It was infatuation with blind eyes.
FEEL ME when I say; love is when you can accept and truly love someone for who they are in this moment right now. for everything they are and everything they are not. if they are selfish, caring, neglecting, thoughtful, manipulative... now sit there & ask yourself if you are truly in love. feel that.
Love is when you can say that this person does not have to change. You can't love someone and expect them to love you back the same way because that's NOT loving them. That's trying to love yourself through someone else. That's you trying to validate the love for yourself by trying to have someone else love you in the way you want.
You are a diamond, the most beautiful diamond worth millions. You only let some people see it or handle it because it's worth so much. If you treat it for what it's worth, then others will too. If you treat it like it's a pebble in a fish tank, you can't be mad if you are sitting at the bottom of the tank surrounded by other pebbles.
You keep giving so much and want the same back, but stop giving. Just sit there and shut up. Stop listening to their words & look at their actions. Stop trying to persuade and maneuver the situation to a place that is mediocre. Are okay with things being just?
When you love yourself the way you want to love yourself, not the way you want someone to love you, then you can honestly love someone else.
Why should I have to leave for you to realize what you had? Now, why should I come back?
Stop being in love with the idea of being in love.
I know when I find the wolf in sheep's clothing, I will be done.