*clenches jaw* Guess I should have waited until you edited your entry...
Carson...I've never been good at break ups. Maybe no one ever is...but I never meant to hurt you. Those break ups...were not completely my fault. You knew our relationship was on the rocks, you knew that things were bad...you knew I wasn't happy.
And the 2nd time around, don't you think I saw how in love you still were with Mandy? Do you know how hard it was to wait around in an empty house when I knew that you wanted to come home to somebody else?? I know I didn't do things right, I know I screwed up, but this isn't only my fault.
Coming back to NYC, I was the one putting in all the effort. I can't do that again. It hurts that you don't want to be in my life...but I am happy now. I want you to be a part of that happiness but if you refuse than I can't make you. I can't beg you and I can't plead with you. Not this time. I'm sorry that you feel like you and I can never talk again...I'm sorry that you feel like everything that happened between us was my fault...but I see things differently. I have tried to make things right and...I'm at a loss...
I know that might be weird, but almost everyone is coming and I would like you to be there too...
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Carson...I've never been good at break ups. Maybe no one ever is...but I never meant to hurt you. Those break ups...were not completely my fault. You knew our relationship was on the rocks, you knew that things were bad...you knew I wasn't happy.
And the 2nd time around, don't you think I saw how in love you still were with Mandy? Do you know how hard it was to wait around in an empty house when I knew that you wanted to come home to somebody else?? I know I didn't do things right, I know I screwed up, but this isn't only my fault.
Coming back to NYC, I was the one putting in all the effort. I can't do that again. It hurts that you don't want to be in my life...but I am happy now. I want you to be a part of that happiness but if you refuse than I can't make you. I can't beg you and I can't plead with you. Not this time. I'm sorry that you feel like you and I can never talk again...I'm sorry that you feel like everything that happened between us was my fault...but I see things differently. I have tried to make things right and...I'm at a loss...
I don't know what else you expect from me.
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