girl about town
i've decided to take my birthday into my own hands this year. so much has changed over the year and this year feels so different from the last. today is the last day for me to be dark and twisty and complicated and angsty, everything a teen is supposed to be. recently i've been living on a quiet happy hum that sustains me i think it's like an inner peace from God and i find myself able to extract myself from sticky situations i would have been stuck in and situations i have been stuck in for years which is so unbelievably cool it's growing up; i'm growing up.
so today, i will wear the most complicated most overwhelming (but not unbearable) outfit i can conjure and spend time with my FFL and bid farewell to teenage angst. i hate being angsty it's so, tiring. (and i hope i dont fall back to being angsty after my birthday)
for the first time in years, i'm actually feeling excited for my birthday hehe vvvv little pre-birthday blues! my 17th, 18th + 19th birthdays were awesome, maybe even unbeatable but really, just having people i love to be there with me on my birthday is awesome enough. WHOO OK it's late hello last day of teenagehood!
PS, bad bad timing but i am completely unable to send out ANY messages from my phone i dont know why!! everything just goes into outbox :( but calls (incoming+outgoing) work just fine and i was warned by beaney to never send my phone for repair during weekends so i cant repair it tomorrow and it takes a week for repair of any sorts anyway so if i dont reply you know why! (unless i can get my hands on dad's extra phone.) i have such bad affinity with tech-gadgets :(
so today, i will wear the most complicated most overwhelming (but not unbearable) outfit i can conjure and spend time with my FFL and bid farewell to teenage angst. i hate being angsty it's so, tiring. (and i hope i dont fall back to being angsty after my birthday)
for the first time in years, i'm actually feeling excited for my birthday hehe vvvv little pre-birthday blues! my 17th, 18th + 19th birthdays were awesome, maybe even unbeatable but really, just having people i love to be there with me on my birthday is awesome enough. WHOO OK it's late hello last day of teenagehood!
PS, bad bad timing but i am completely unable to send out ANY messages from my phone i dont know why!! everything just goes into outbox :( but calls (incoming+outgoing) work just fine and i was warned by beaney to never send my phone for repair during weekends so i cant repair it tomorrow and it takes a week for repair of any sorts anyway so if i dont reply you know why! (unless i can get my hands on dad's extra phone.) i have such bad affinity with tech-gadgets :(