Misc.... and lots of it.
Hmn. What to start with, it's been a while since I posted.
Work is not going well, I'm starting an hour and a half shift on Monday, up from 1 hour shifts. And even the hour shifts were tough. Didn't go at all on Friday due to major anxiety issues. Actually didn't end up leaving the house from Thursday night until this morning around noonish, since the snow we got was pretty ugly.
Joined the YWCA this week, went again this morning. I walked 20 minutes on the treadmill today. I know that doesn't sound like much, but it's a start, and I really had to push myself for the last 3 minutes. I just wanted to quit.
Mom and Carol came up Thursday and we went bead shopping. I got frustrated with myself. I waited for them at Southdale, where they were to meet me. I was there by myself for about an hour... and the anxiety started kicking my ass. An hour alone in a mall made me a wreck, near to tears. Which makes me very sad and angry. I just want my normal life back. Is that really too much to ask?
Sam met up with Mom, Carol and I as we bead shopped, then we went to dinner, what a blast. I forget how funny my family can be when they're not bickering. I'm really looking forward to next weekend at Carol's. Beading Weekend. Hot tub, Sauna, Tea House with Carol, Mom, Sierra and Sam... that should be another riot. And lots and lots of beading. Knowing my Aunt, it will be lots and lots of fun, lots and lots of relaxing. Low stress, which is what I need it to be.
I signed up for a beginners peyote class in February. February 26th I'll finally be learning the Peyote stich that every bead pattern I've seen lately calls for. It's my birthday present to myself. It's only $25 for the class plus supplies. Well, I looked at the supply list and realized I already HAD all the supplies, except for a button, which will probably cost me $1. Whoop-dee-do. I am finally going to learn this damn stitch. And then I'll have a whole new world of patterns open to me, including some awesome ornament patterns I found. I only really know basic netting stiches and a tiny bit of right angle weave. Very tiny bit, but I get the basic idea.
Alright, enough out of me. Sam's sister's boyfriend loaned us the 2nd season of Futurama on DVD, we're addicts.....
Work is not going well, I'm starting an hour and a half shift on Monday, up from 1 hour shifts. And even the hour shifts were tough. Didn't go at all on Friday due to major anxiety issues. Actually didn't end up leaving the house from Thursday night until this morning around noonish, since the snow we got was pretty ugly.
Joined the YWCA this week, went again this morning. I walked 20 minutes on the treadmill today. I know that doesn't sound like much, but it's a start, and I really had to push myself for the last 3 minutes. I just wanted to quit.
Mom and Carol came up Thursday and we went bead shopping. I got frustrated with myself. I waited for them at Southdale, where they were to meet me. I was there by myself for about an hour... and the anxiety started kicking my ass. An hour alone in a mall made me a wreck, near to tears. Which makes me very sad and angry. I just want my normal life back. Is that really too much to ask?
Sam met up with Mom, Carol and I as we bead shopped, then we went to dinner, what a blast. I forget how funny my family can be when they're not bickering. I'm really looking forward to next weekend at Carol's. Beading Weekend. Hot tub, Sauna, Tea House with Carol, Mom, Sierra and Sam... that should be another riot. And lots and lots of beading. Knowing my Aunt, it will be lots and lots of fun, lots and lots of relaxing. Low stress, which is what I need it to be.
I signed up for a beginners peyote class in February. February 26th I'll finally be learning the Peyote stich that every bead pattern I've seen lately calls for. It's my birthday present to myself. It's only $25 for the class plus supplies. Well, I looked at the supply list and realized I already HAD all the supplies, except for a button, which will probably cost me $1. Whoop-dee-do. I am finally going to learn this damn stitch. And then I'll have a whole new world of patterns open to me, including some awesome ornament patterns I found. I only really know basic netting stiches and a tiny bit of right angle weave. Very tiny bit, but I get the basic idea.
Alright, enough out of me. Sam's sister's boyfriend loaned us the 2nd season of Futurama on DVD, we're addicts.....