mute
I'm feeling crooked and full of muted tones. These last couple of weeks have been busy, but a good busy. I'm anxious and nervous about the application process. My last SATs will be in November and by the 30th I'll have all my UC apps turned in, and soon after that will be privates. It's terrifying, really. Today Jen said something that made me think. She said, "God already knows where you're going to end up, I find that comforting." I do and I don't. I mean knowing that all of this will pass and wherever I end up is where I end up is nerve-racking as much as it is a comfort. I feel like I'm drowning and I haven't even gotten passed ankles in the water.
There are so many things I want to do and I feel like there's not enough time for anything. I'm scared I'm not going to be good enough when I get out there.
It's overwhelming.
There are so many things I want to do and I feel like there's not enough time for anything. I'm scared I'm not going to be good enough when I get out there.
It's overwhelming.