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I don't know how I get into these crazy situations but I do. Last night was my first band show, and it went well. I went to a party afterwards with the band. I was there for about 5 seconds when Mike came up to me, and gave me a hug. His older sister, Cait, comes over with him and asks, "Can you take him home? He's really drunk." I thought, you're his sister? Shouldn't you?
But of course I agreed to it and Meg and I carried him back to Bartlett. Where I spent the next hour in the men's bathroom, rubbing his back while he puked in the toilet. The whole time he was like, "Meg you can go. It's okay. Carly can take care of me." Meg didn't leave thank god, but why does he have to say stuff like that? He's the one that hurt me. So I got him back in to his room and in his bed, on his side. He grabs my hand and goes, "Can you stay with me? Please?" I stayed with him util he fell asleep, but he held on to my hand the whole time.
While taking care of him, I was texting both Justin and Pat. I was just telling Justin what was up since I cut our phone conversation short. I asked Pat to watch the band at the party and I said I would be back to the party within ten minutes.
So an hour later I head back to the party and run into the band. Meg and I turn about and start taking the band back to the inn. While we were walking away, Pat texted, "You never showed." I returned with, "I'm with the band. We're taking them back."
He responds with, "Oh I was just wondering. I was kinda hoping to see you tonight."
My heart hit the bottom of stomach. Really? Did he just say that?
I replied with, "Well, we did briefly." He finished the conversation with, "Don't be like that. Good night." Two guys. Two guys who hurt me are back. In one night.
So I am walking with the band and the girl that I thought Pat was still dating passes on the other side of the street. I had mentioned girl drama and the lead singer drunkenly points to the girl and says, "Do you think she has girl drama? Do you think she is calling her man to make more girl drama?" I had to pull him away or else he would have stopped for sure to talk to her. So there's that factor too.
I just wish Justin was here so I wouldn't have to even think about any of this. Seeing him everyday to not seeing him at all is hard. And I just feel so awful for even thinking about Pat or Mike. All I could think about last year was getting a chance to get back together with either of them.
It's hard and feel guilty. Even though I haven't done anything at all wrong.
But of course I agreed to it and Meg and I carried him back to Bartlett. Where I spent the next hour in the men's bathroom, rubbing his back while he puked in the toilet. The whole time he was like, "Meg you can go. It's okay. Carly can take care of me." Meg didn't leave thank god, but why does he have to say stuff like that? He's the one that hurt me. So I got him back in to his room and in his bed, on his side. He grabs my hand and goes, "Can you stay with me? Please?" I stayed with him util he fell asleep, but he held on to my hand the whole time.
While taking care of him, I was texting both Justin and Pat. I was just telling Justin what was up since I cut our phone conversation short. I asked Pat to watch the band at the party and I said I would be back to the party within ten minutes.
So an hour later I head back to the party and run into the band. Meg and I turn about and start taking the band back to the inn. While we were walking away, Pat texted, "You never showed." I returned with, "I'm with the band. We're taking them back."
He responds with, "Oh I was just wondering. I was kinda hoping to see you tonight."
My heart hit the bottom of stomach. Really? Did he just say that?
I replied with, "Well, we did briefly." He finished the conversation with, "Don't be like that. Good night." Two guys. Two guys who hurt me are back. In one night.
So I am walking with the band and the girl that I thought Pat was still dating passes on the other side of the street. I had mentioned girl drama and the lead singer drunkenly points to the girl and says, "Do you think she has girl drama? Do you think she is calling her man to make more girl drama?" I had to pull him away or else he would have stopped for sure to talk to her. So there's that factor too.
I just wish Justin was here so I wouldn't have to even think about any of this. Seeing him everyday to not seeing him at all is hard. And I just feel so awful for even thinking about Pat or Mike. All I could think about last year was getting a chance to get back together with either of them.
It's hard and feel guilty. Even though I haven't done anything at all wrong.