i wish that i was bulletproof
last night was crazy.
i came home from school, and automatically finished my homework...then i worked on my photography project for a good while...heh, i made the mistake of asking my mom what apature (sp?) to set my lense on if i was in a darker room (my mom is really into photography so i figured she would know)...well she just went on and on and said all of this crap that didnt answer my question...heh, but i guess thats my fault for asking.
right..
well, i also found out that it was my mom who unplugged the computer Monday morning, and she had unplugged it that night so i wouldnt stay up....but "as long as i dont fall behind" she "doesnt see why i cant chat online for a bit each day after my work" so yeah, i was pretty happy about that..i guess i shouldnt assume things...but then again if she didnt unplug the internet to punish me...what was all odf that "we are going to start where we left off last year" bullshit....bleh oh well, im done thinking about that.
right...
well, around 7 i started studying for summer reading and descoverd that the books that i acctually did read i didnt even remember half of what they were about or who the characters in it were...partly because i wasnt on medicine when i was reading (meaning the books were pretty boring so i eventually would have zoned out) but mainly because i wasnt reading them with intentions of making a good grade on summer reading i was reading them so my mom would be satisfyed and let me see my buddies....
wow, that didnt sound much like me...
but anyways, around 8 i was panicking because i had so much ground to cover in my reading and i couldnt find my aderal (my mom hides it now)...and around 9 or so i finally found it so i could relax a bit....so i called hunter and we got to talk for an hour or so...i called him back around 11 after the rents had gone to bed but he was tired so i let himgo...
right..well....from 11;30- 4;43 am i read "a lesson before dying" cover to coever (its about 300 or so pages...) it all seemed to go by so fast....it felt like i had only been readying for 1-2 hours....
my dad came in around 3 and wanted to know why i was up so i told him i couldnt go back to sleep....bleh, i hate lieing like that..to him at least, he usually understands....but i didnt want my mom to find out i found the aderal.
so i started geting ready for school around 4;50 or so...hah, i took a bubble bath, repainted my toe nails, straitend my hair (eventhough i have naturally strait hair?), put streaks of pink temporary hairdye (it's the stuff that lasts like 4 washes or so...but my hair is so thin it really all comesout after teh first wash..anways) and i also re-organized all of my binders while listening to david bowie...then around 7 we left for school, i listened to the bends by radiohead (the album) i have a new song i am obbessed wtih fomr there....
but yeah, i only got 3 of the 4 essays for the summer reading test done...but its all good, at least i dont think i will fail.
i have been acting weird all day...i think itsbecause i didnt sleep...maybe because the aderal i took last night didnt wear off completly but i took another one anyways this morning...hm maybe thats it...
but i seriously am not making sense today...and i cant concentrate AT ALL..i couldnt even concentrate in photography and that is my fav class...
sorry if this is all freaky....i dont like it when i amlike this...
ihavent eaten much in the past week, that worries me....in teh past two days i have had broccoli, a peice of bread, three bites of a sassage and cheese biscuit...and like infinitive glasses of white grape juice...i am in love with taht crap...
itsso weird how i am so tired, yet i have so much energy...
ok ummmmm im done....wait maybe not....
"Bulletproof.. I Wish I Was" By Radiohead
Limb by limb and tooth by tooth
Tearing up inside of me
Every day every hour
I wish that I was bullet proof
Wax me
Mould me
Heat the pins and stab them in
You have turned me into this
Just wish that it was bullet proof
So pay the money and take a shot
Leadfill the hole in me
I could burst a million bubbles
All surrogate and bullet proof
And bullet proof
And bullet proof
And bullet proof
man, that song is amazing...i put it on repeat like 8 times this morning.
im so weird right now, ignore allof this...im not even acting like caro today...