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I feel like I'm sinking.
no one's company is making me feel better.
I'm actually just annoyed by everyone. I know that if I were with him, though, I would be happy and entertained and laughing and there wouldn't be this pit in my stomach.
its been two days without any contact from him. I know I don't NEED him,
but to leave off on THAT NOTE?
all I want is the chance to speak to him.
I have this favorite mayhem cd, too. I think I'm going to use that as collateral.
how can he just ignore me like that?
I can't even explain how terrible it feels.
not knowing if that was the last time I'll ever be able to be with him again...
it fucking sucks...
I need to get out of this moping phase.
I can barely get out of my room.
tomorrow I will return my movie, talk to chris about, and re-evaluate.
time to continue chain smoking.
no one's company is making me feel better.
I'm actually just annoyed by everyone. I know that if I were with him, though, I would be happy and entertained and laughing and there wouldn't be this pit in my stomach.
its been two days without any contact from him. I know I don't NEED him,
but to leave off on THAT NOTE?
all I want is the chance to speak to him.
I have this favorite mayhem cd, too. I think I'm going to use that as collateral.
how can he just ignore me like that?
I can't even explain how terrible it feels.
not knowing if that was the last time I'll ever be able to be with him again...
it fucking sucks...
I need to get out of this moping phase.
I can barely get out of my room.
tomorrow I will return my movie, talk to chris about, and re-evaluate.
time to continue chain smoking.