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[_butterfly_eyes]

i always make the same mistakes over and over again.
I keep saying next time it will be different,
next time i will be different,
this time, i will learn.
but it never is, i never am, and i never will.

whats ever worse, is that i blab about it on livejournal.
I guess im sick of making my friends listen to me complain.
I guess they are probably sick of hearing me complain.
I just wish i didn't have to complain
that there was nothing to complain about
that i knew it wouldn't do anything

I am a creature of habit i suppose.
What if i did change, what if things were different?

thinking about it wont change it, moping wont change how i feel

i know that, but why cant i believe it?